Jump to content
  • Want to be a part of a supportive community? Join the H Opp community for free.

    Welcome to the Herpes Opportunity Support Forum! We are a supportive and positive group to help you discover and live your Opportunity. Together, we can shed the shame and embrace vulnerability and true connection. Because who you are is more important than what you have. Get your free e-book and handouts here: https://www.herpesopportunity.com/lp/ebook

black day :(

Recommended Posts

So within the last week, I've discovered my relationship was basically a lie & now the HSV2 diagnosis. This has all been alot to take. The heartache is still so new that, weirdly, the diagnosis seems almost secondary. The relationship came after a long rebuilding period after my divorce (ironically, from a cheater-although I saw that one coming so far in advance that I had plenty of time to prepare for leaving). I was in a great place, buying my first house & wasn't looking for anyone when "mr wonderful" entered my life. I kept him at arms length for awhile, but he worked & worked and won my trust and my heart. In retrospect, I can now see when he started to pull away, but never in million did he give any indication we were no longer exclusive or that he was headed in another direction (or two). I thought he was a man of extreme integrity & never suspected for a minute. Now I find myself fixated on WHY (which I know is ridiculous). But after going through this TWICE, I keep wondering if there is something fundamentally un-lovable about me. I know the new-ness is probably keeping me from seeing the other side of things, but with this diagnosis, I'm obligated to honesty with anyone who might enter my future (although that seems like a VERY remote possibility at this point). How do I do that without absolute trust? How will I ever be able to trust again?

Link to comment

Create an account or sign in to comment

You need to be a member in order to leave a comment

Create an account

Sign up for a new account in our community. It's easy!

Register a new account

Sign in

Already have an account? Sign in here.

Sign In Now
  • Create New...