I am actually crying

[genussbutterfly]

I lost my virginity to an older guy and I still love him so much but he doesnt like me and he doesnt love me. I told him today that its time for me to let go now.

 

I feel so hurt and lonely and I just don't feel worth it anymore. I just feel like guys don't want me and I try so hard and I can't do it anymore.

 

I just want to be alone now. I've been hurt so many times and I can't take it anymore.

[genussbutterfly]

Can anyone please just comment and make me feel better. I feel like crap atm

[mr_hopp]

We love you, butterfly. And now it sounds like it's a good time for you to fall in love with yourself. Ever heard that cliché? Well, there's a damn good reason it's a cliché: Before you truly love yourself, no one else will. It sounds like you're putting a lot of importance in what someone else thinks about you. Whether someone loves you or not doesn't make you lovable or unlovable. Whether you love yourself or not does. And trust me, I've been there. Still catch myself feeling that way. And then I have to remind myself to love myself in those moments. To accept myself. Much love to you. Talk soon.

[genussbutterfly]

Thank you so much. Adrial my issue is I care about other people before myself and tbh I shouldn't really cry because its my own fault. I could of avoided my own hurt but i didn't.

[mr_hopp]

Being a martyr doesn't help anyone. And sacrificing yourself is actually killing yourself little by little. Sacrifice sounds so noble in our culture, but truly sacrificing ourselves means we're not actually allowing ourselves to live. When we come from loving ourselves first then love others, that's a whole new level of deep love.

[genussbutterfly]

True. I think I need to learn to love myself.... something I will work on overtime