I feel so overwhelmed

[sewwhat]

i chickened out about leaving so much info "out there" so i edited my post sorry

i was afraid he'd find it somehow

[mr_hopp]

First off, thank you for sharing yourself so transparently here. That's a strength, a good quality for the disclosure conversation or any conversation. Secondly, how about just talking with him straightup like you just wrote to us? You found out when you found out and now you want to disclose to him. No shame in that. Think of this as less of a presentation and more of a conversation between two adults. If you set it up that way, then it takes the pressure off of it. Let him know what you want out of your relationship, too. And hey, no shame in loving sex. And there's more to it than just sex.