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Just was told I probably have herpes

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I posted the name of what she prescribed above.

So now I have a patch on my left front leg. I don't know if it's heat rash because I use a heated blanket because I don't have pants or if I spread this stupid shit. And of course I randomly itched my leg thru the blanket before I looked. So is this shit just gonna spread all over? Or do you think it's heat rash?

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And the doctor did tell me that she didn't know if the meds would be really helpful because it's best to start within the first 72 hours. But I thought it was ingrown hairs from wild sex and a yeast infection so I didn't go in.

 

I'm concerned about this patch on my leg. It was not there this morning.

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And I kind of get stoked for my birthday but it's because me and my kids love cake and fun. I won't even tell you what a douche bag he was on my birthday lol.

 

Clearly I have other issues to address. After this bout of grossness is done and I can put my fucking big girl pants on.

 

I think my spirits are up a bit so that's good. Lmao

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I wouldn't assume it's H. My body reacted weird to H. Fkr months z especially if I missed a pill, I'd break out on my extremities, tiny red bumps, that sorta looked like blood blisters. If I popped tjemz it would be blood. I feel it was like a small vessel vasculitis, which can happen from lots if inflammation in your body, when fighting and infection and having AIs. You're fine, don't worry.

 

Don't mess w it and spray Bactine on it. You will not spread it through the blanket.

 

I don't care about my bday cause if the way I grew up... So I'm sure I'm an anomaly. I just didn't exist next to my twin bro who was a min older. One cakez they'd light the candles z let him blow, relight them for me to blow, while he antagonized me, about how it doesn't count since he did it first. So I don't know anyone for it, but I personally can't relate, because I tried to hide from it. It reminds me of bad stuff... So don't wanna make you feel bad for enjoying it. Hope that makes sense and that I didn't offend you. That was only the least if what it was like for me. It usually ended up physical, so I HATE my bday and I have a hard time w relating to people who live having one. My apologies. :-)

 

Girl, you've been doing great! Give yourself some credit! You are handling everything way better than I did, upon diagnosis! I was sooook dramatic! Were you able to get your meds? How is your nerve pain?

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Sodeh fkr typos, but this site makes the curser jump and switch whereI try to correct and after several attempts, I get sick if it and five up. Only on my phone do I have this issue.

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I am taking the valacyclovir twice a day. Big blue pills. I couldn't get anyone to give me the nerve meds but that has subsided pretty well. I get tweaks here and there but that's about it. I am also taking aleve every 12 hours and drinking buckets of water and I ate a lot of yogurt. I guess I thought the probiotic and the cultures in the yogurt would help.

 

The sores broke open so that is gross and they stick to stuff and hurt. I got bactine and am in love with that shit! Thank god! And I can pee without throwing myself off the toilet in pain so that's a bonus. There is still a decent amount of pain but I am also sleeping better. Today's new symptom is a headache upon awaking

 

I think sitting commando now for 1.5 days has really helped. And I got Epsom salts. I was doing baking soda baths but now I'm using massive amounts of Epsom salts. And I did spray the weird spot only thigh with bactine and I covered it with a band side. I'm an itcher by nature. Today it looks like a red blob. No blisters. I sprayed it and covered it again. And I'm not getting any new sores down under so that is good right?

 

I have fever blisters. I had some fevers so high I swear I hallunicated so that sucked.

 

I started watching some of the videos the guy that made this site posted so that is helping me some. I am still really upset with my partner. He brought me Epsom salt and bactine and had pizza with us but I really feel like he thinks I'm gross. Which is really jacked up cuz I'm about 100% he gave this to me Mr rash and nut itch it I put lotion on and it went away. He fucking had it for a week. I even said something to him about how I feel and he said no that's not true and went on to bitch about his kids so that situation is up in the air. I really have some anger and hurt feelings and self worth feelings I'm going to have to deal with there

 

As I sit here the neuropathy is just a bit I my left leg but I'm sitting on aslant a it because that is how I landed in the chair.

 

I'm going to go to work for a bit and then come back home because I swear letting the sores dry out makes them heal a whole lot faster. So my total span was regular sex on a Friday night or early Saturday morning oral sex late Saturday night. Slight itch and irritation on Monday with it professing until Friday where I barely made it through the day with pants and exactly a week later I was pretty crippled. Following Monday started meds and now it's Thursday so two days short of two weeks and I feel like it's getting better but it still hurts.

 

God save the first razor I use after this shit!

 

 

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Just catching up on here... but I saw in another post that your partner basically has admitted that he knew he has herpes and didn't tell you .... given his all around reaction, I think you need to get schooled on what I call the Herpes Wingman Effect: This guy is showing you who he IS .... and no matter what, that's not going to change.

 

http://supporttruthanddialog.com/using-herpes-as-your-wingman/

 

Herpes as a relationship filter Adrial

 

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As for your outbreaks, you are doing a lot of good things (going commando, bactine, epsom salts baths) .... My go-to (as a 35 yr veteran) is Ammonium Alum ... info is below, along with other things people have used with success like L Lysine, Olive Leaf Extract, and the like :)

 

I suggest you keep a journal of what you are eating, activities, stressors, etc ... see if you can see a pattern for what makes it worse. I often say that Herpes is like a "first responder" to the health of your body ... although in the first few months, it's often just that your body needs time to figure out how to get it under control.

 

 

http://herpeslife.com/herpes-forum/discussion/6024/dealing-with-outbreaks#latest includes links below

http://supporttruthanddialog.com/easy-simple-self-help-tips-for-relief-from-herpes-outbreaks/

http://herpeslife.com/herpes-forum/discussion/4810/bactine-for-oral-and-even-genital-herpes

http://herpeslife.com/herpes-treatment/

http://herpeslife.com/herpes-medication/

 

http://www.cdc.gov/std/treatment/2010/genital-ulcers.htm#hsv

 

Links to some of the items suggested in the links

http://amzn.to/1CHUzZE Link to Alum

http://tinyurl.com/Aloecream

http://amzn.to/1F10r3V Fractionated Coconut Oil

http://bit.ly/zincsoap Zinc Soap with coconut oil

http://bit.ly/Zinccream

http://bit.ly/Calendula_Salve

http://tinyurl.com/bactine

http://tinyurl.com/Oragelsgldose

http://tinyurl.com/DMSO4HSV

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And if you can, get to Planned Parenthood ... the ER and walk-in clinics are usually the LAST place I would send someone with Herpes... they are usually the least well informed of all the Dr's ... even worse than GP's :(

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Hahaha! It made me laugh reading that about the bactine. Yeah I had bought it when I got cellulites from pulling out a hang nail, will never do that again and was in so much pain. So I bought that to stick my finger in. Then one day I just tried it on an OB that along w epsom salt has been my go to since, as none of the other home remedies worked as well as the bactine. Smear some Vaseline on a panty liner, so it helps stop the sores from sticking and then reopening.

 

The valtrex is causing the headache. Once it was building up in my system, I got bad and constant headaches for about a week and then it stopped. That will pass for you as well.

 

Why do you think he thinks you're gross? I think you may be projecting how you're feeling about yourself on him. If he does think that, being he knew deep down he had H, then that speaks volumes about him and is very hypocritical.

 

Hahaha! Yeah, it's weird, your primary OB will get worse after a week after initial symptoms and then get better after a week of hell for some of us. Mine was like that too. Thank god you didn't get persistent neuropathy like I did. I think my drinking alcoholalcohol, the afternoon after my diagnosis w a friend, to drink my sorrow's away is what made it get worse for me. I was a lot more ignorant to H back thethen and didn't realize that alcohol suppresses the immune system.

 

Don't worry, you'll get over the emotional side of it.

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Ugh. I have a new symptom. I have creamy white discharge and some of it is sort of yellowish. It doesn't really smell. But wtf??? Really??? When is it done? The spot on my leg is redder and does have tiny little blisters but it doesn't really itch. This is really annoying and every time something new or more painful happens I get more pissed.

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You're lucky just that... Mine was pretty bad. I had bad watwry smelly discharge, because the doc said I was covered internally w sores. I had to wear a pad it was so bad and you already know how horrible it is for the sores to stick to the liner. Lol... I'm not laughing at you, but I laugh cause of your forwardness, cause it reminds me of myself and I LOOOVVVEEE forward females, who just say what they're thinking. It's a rare commodity... Hehe.. They usually have great humor...

 

It took some time for me to feel normal down there.. Like a couple months. Most don't take that long.

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I am pretty blunt and I don't sugarcoat anything. I figure how can you guys help me if I don't just put it all out there. And I need reality checks because I don't always live in reality. I smear reality with my expectations and it gets me in a lot of messes.

 

And I'm so disgusted with all of this I just don't give a shit. I know I'm in for a life changer with this. And I know from dancer2010 and you that I need to stay in reality about my partner. He is showing who he is and I have some big decisions coming

 

I read the article about the H wingman. It was good. My partner is the runner but he is the sly type. Given the opportunity he will fade over time. And then he will make like he is doing me this huge favor because he just can't live with what he did. Blah blah you selfish fuck. (Ok. I am bitter right now anyone with a crotch that you can cook grilled cheese on its so hot would be fucking bitter). I have to go find the threads on anger management.

 

 

As far as symptoms, the longer I walked and stood the worse the neuropathy got today. I made it at work until about 3pm. . But only my left leg and butt cheek. So here's to hoping tomorrow is a bit better. The pain down under is tolerable if I sit in comfortable spots and I go commando. But t is getting better.

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Omg, u sound like me! I hate sugarcoating thing's! I find it emotionally exhausting!

 

Omg, me too! I expect too much and assume the worst.

 

Hahahah! You have a right to feel that way! No lie, if it weren't for H. I'd gotten involved w two bad people for me the last yr n half. It really makes you stop romanticizing as much and get swept away w hormones.

 

Yeah neuropathy is the worse part for me. Go get some vitamin B shots, they're essential for nerve support and repair. Sounds like it shouldn't get too bad for you, so you may be good by this time next week. Hope you wake feeling better!

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I feel pretty good today. The sores are dry so I'm going to do the vasaline trick and hope that makes work better. I don't have to be in until 10. And I slept pretty good. I am also recovering from a couple fever blisters on my forehead. I had a couple good fevers in the 103 zone. But is the sores are drying up I'm hopeful I'm in the mend.

 

And yup. We sound like twins. So maybe I just found my blessing in disguise with the H. And I a seeing things clearer now.

 

My spirits are up today even though the headache is pretty bad and has settled in my eyes. I'm going to get myself a fat jimmy johns and chips for lunch and celebrate my new reality!!!

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In your forehead? Have you had that before?

 

I'm so glad you're feeling better. Don't worry, your recurrents won't be like this. Despite how terrible my primary was, I've never been like that again. All my recurrents have been a SI gle bumo on my vagina, redness in my groin crease or a couple of bumps on my buttock. Nothing has hurt me since.

 

Yeah, valtrex is causing the headache... That will eventually go away after being on it for some time. Are you going to stay on suppressive therapy or be done after taking this round?

 

Definitely sounds like you're about to be back to yourself soon. Just keep doing what you've been doing. Stay away from alcohol for a least a month, until things calm down, plenty of sleep and if you have symptoms, do Epsom salt baths and Bactine again.

 

Take some motrin to help w the headache. What's your new reality may I ask? Well I'm always here for ya if you need to talk. Hugs!

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Well my new reality is to pay attention to red flags and not make excuses.

 

So my results are in. I tested positive for hsv1 and negative for hsv2. She talked to me for a while because I had so many questions. What she said was he more than likely also has HSV1 in his groin area. Especially since the statements of the rash and itchy nut. She said if I contracted it from his mouth he would have had to have a cold sore and he didn't. She said my shaving probably left open follicles and that is how I got it. She said the tests definitely showed t is a new infection so I got it from my partner.

 

I decided to not do suppressive therapy right away because it is HSV1. I told her I wanted to wait and see if I got another OB. She said that was a sensible decision and left me three standing three day doses of valtrex and told me what to watch out for and I could just go to my pharmacy and pick up a script.

 

So then I texted the asshat. And tell him the deal and that he has it. Can you believe he asked me if there is a way to get rid of it? I am just beyond hurt and pissed!!! So I say no. No there is t and I have it in my crotch and now I have a standing prescription. Fucker. God!!!!

 

 

No fear of alcohol, I'm a recovering alcoholic. I may Ben and jerrys cherry Garcia my ass to happiness though. I don't even have words. I knew I had H but like getting the test results just makes it so real and I feel so unsupported by my partner. Who does this? I was so fuckjng mad I said 'so since you didn't have a cold sore it's in your groin area and you would have had to get it by someone giving you head with a cold sore. When did that happen???'

 

Fuck happy Valentine's Day!

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Thank you for that information. It gives me hope. However I don't think I'm emotionally ready to date right now. I clearly have a resentment and some anger issues to deal with and have to adjust to living with herpes.

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Well your doctor is incorrect, your contagious during times called asymptomatic shedding. This is actually when most people spread the virus. Yes, there coukd be a chance he has it on his genitals too, but that's an assumption w out a swab. It would be MORE likely, you got it from oral sex, than through regular sex; albeit it still happens.

 

Hahaha! I don't man to laugh, but it was funny that you said ass hat and asked would u believe he asked if he could get rid of it! Lol.... You know, because it's HSV 1, it's not as cut and dry, as if it'd been having 2. He very well could have HSV 1 orally only and that other stuff could be from something else, then again what a strange coincidence about the Chic from the hospital and how he's wonders if he's had it in the past. I dunno, stranger shit has happened in life, right!? He may not have anything to swab, but if a rash comes up again, have him go w in 48hrs, they coukd try a swab and a biopsy. Lol.... You make me laugh, even when going through this. You're dealing so much better than I did... Hahahah..

 

Yeah, I knew I had it too, 2 days before I was diagnosed and I was impressed w how I was handling it. I didn't cry and I think reality hadn't sat in yetand despite the ulcers, I still worked out and didn't have much pain, unless touched. Then when on the table w the feet in the air and she was like yuo, I started balling my eyes out. Then I met my friend at the bar after and had drinks, that's when I suddenly felt fatigue... That would be 5 days now after infection. That alcohol was a bad idea, because it seemed done and I didn't think it was a big deal as much as I had heard. Well I woke that Friday night w itching like nobody's f'ing business and felt like a shit load of bumps cane up and it continued like that for like two or 3 more days, but they never ulcerated, they just stayed bumps, but the itch was insane! It was worse than the pain of the ulcers! Then bumps stopped coming out and the nerve shit started... I was like, "my body hates me"... Lol. Let's just out it this way, I could barely get out of bed from pain, depression, self loathing..I cried constantly the first few weeks, all day, through out the day and it was the only thing on my mind. I cried a lot the first two months after that.... I was totally overly dramatic, but mainly because my fear was that ths pain would never go away and that all my future obs would be like that. I feared permanent nerve damage. So while everyone fears being rejected by these hypothetical rejections in the future, from the figment of their imaginations; I was worried about how I could live life w this debilitating pain. Once I got that taken care of w Neurontin, then it came to me grieving all the sex I never had. I'd tell my friends that I should have "whored" it up like many, instead of being so standoffish to casual sex all this time! Lol....

 

I feel your pain! I really do. Hang in there and just remember, he may not have it down there and it may have been from oral sex.. Tough call, just because of the other stuff w that girl.

 

Congrats on sobriety! That's awesome! You should be proud of yourself!

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Thanks! Next week will be 18 years.

 

Well he drank last night and then got all meloncoley. I don't know how to spell. I'm going to tell him again today about what you said that it's likely he has it in his mouth.

 

I got another big as bump on my underpants line. Yesterday was the first I wore clothes all day. Is that normal. It's big. And I have itching I didn't have but I wonder if it's from hair growth maybe? Or the neuropathy. So I'm in that freaked out stage where I feel something and I'm like omg it's never going to go away!

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Yeah, right now unless he can be swabbed, biopsied, etc.. There is no telling where it's at... But yes, more likely to catch it from his mouth than his genitals, but not possible. He could have it both places. W that said, his other comments are still strange.

 

So remember I said the first week I got the fissures and then ulcers and pain, then the second week I broke out in bumps, that itched worse than the pain in the ulcers (not the neuropathy though). So yeah. My second week was bumps and tons of itching. Your nerves are a bit mangled right now, so post herpetic itching can be expected. Keep taking the Epsom salt baths, as that's the only thing that relieved my itch and continue w the bactine. Some people do get a second wave, but it's usually bumps and itching.

 

This is why we recommend journaling daily the first 6 months w symptoms. I still journal a yr n half later, because my symptoms change every few months. Journal daily symptoms, location, sensations, number of times a day you felt paresthesia and possible triggers. This will help you learn your body post H. On too of that, it seems to help feeling like you're taking some control of something you don't have much control over, by journaling it and learning your body. I know, I thought the same thing. When it seemed like it had all stopped on that Friday and u had just the ulcers, I remember waking to itching and feeling a shit load more popped up in hrs! almost threw up and passed out, because of not feeling well, but out of sheer shock and horror, that it would never end and it continued popping out more for like two or three more night's. Don't worry, it does stop. What week are you on now?

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I just finished what me and the doctor feel was week two. I got it two Saturday's ago. He was drinking last night by himself so there was a lot of mushy texts and bullshit guilt texts. I had taken my kids with my sisters fsmily to a fun restaurant and game room and was therefore wiped out so I just went to bed.

 

I truly believe all of his responses are bullshit and he had t and knew it and because no one else prior to me ever accused him he never thought twice. And it would just be grand if he actually went and got tested and it came back negative and he would unleash that on me. At one point last night he spun it that way. Then it seems like you are not interested in me. Blah blah

 

I think the pills give me poop problems which made my hermoroid show back up and that is messing me now too. But all in all I did some stuff today and had minor pain and just fatigue. I'm soaking now and gonna be done for the night.

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Well didn't you say a girl he slept w called him from the ER and told him he gave her herpes?

 

I dunno, it's hard to say in this situation, because who knows where his infection is at. Start taking a probiotic, that will help w the constipation. That can be one if the side effects of it. You should not feel as fatigue by week 3... Some it makes them fatigue longer. Hang in there z all will be OK.

 

Doesn't him drinking ever make you feel like you want a drink?

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Nah. It's been 18 years. I hate to say never but I am active in a 12 step program so I a constantly reminded I am one of those that just doesn't mix with the drink. I have experienced deep depression in sobriety. Not having an anesthetic against emotional ups and downs is a bummer but I have been blessed in the fact that the compulsion was removed.

 

I wish this herpes shit was that easy. I am in week three and I feel pretty good I think I have about three sores left. And the weird neuropathy and it's in my glutes. It keeps feeling like somethings is there so I grab my reared and there is nothing but my growing ass lol. And I think I have one or two of those fissures you talked about. Sort of like a paper cut sort of. I don't know if they are rub marks from wearing pads for so many days in a row.

 

And the itching ensued last night and a little tonight. Crimes! That was bad. I didn't itch in the beginning.

 

And no fatigue. I worked all day and felt great. I am using the Vaseline trick and that is helping a lot. And the patch on my leg is almost gone.

 

I don't know that I can fault him for this if it indeed was from long ago. But I really don't know about him cheating on me. I just don't know. I think he had it and this was just really unfortunate.

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