Constant Prodrome, No OBs, Suicidal Thoughts & Extreme Anxiety

[mkat52]

This is my first post. I found out about last Sept that I had HSV-2 that I had so shamefully & regretably contracted from some 1 night stand asshole drifter who I KNOW did this to me on purpose. I disclosed to my amazing bf & he is totally ok with this. The problems are that IM NOT ok with it. I have to wear very binding & tight outfits for work and have literally been in pain everyday since weeks before I found out. There are NO sores- but it always hurts...Is this normal? We have only been able to have sex like once per month because of this. I have suicidal thoughts CONSTANTLY! I dont want to die but I also just want my life back. I want to stop hating the evil bastard that did this to me and I want to get over it- but mainly I just wonder if it will ever be even close to normal again or will I have to live with symptoms forever? ALSO- my bf & I wear a condom AND I make him wear boxers as to cover him totally so he does not contract. Is there NOTHING that works for me? Ive tried Acyclovir for months everyday, Lysine the same and even started the oregeno oil. And will he ever be able to perform oral on me ever again? God I miss that :( FML

[Damnhim]

Hi. I'm new here too. Just contracted 3 weeks ago from my bf of two years. Had my first OB a week after I broke up with him because I just wasn't trusting him any more. Go figure. Anyways, I don't know what to say about the anger because I'm full of so much of it. We are supposed to stay positive (I read on here) so I found something you can be grateful for. You can be grateful that you don't get an OB! Believe me. It's all even worse when you have gross painful oozing sores all over your vagina. That can't even heal cuz you can't keep it dry.

You can also be grateful and focus on that great boyfriend!

We all do stupid shit! Your not the first person to have a one night stand! So try and let that go! And the guy may be a scumbag, but he may not even have known. 80% of ppl with herpes don't even know! That's huge. So maybe you can let some of that go too

[Damnhim]

A lady on here yesterday told me to take a b complex vitamin. And already the pain down my legs and this all over incesent itching I had are gone. Maybe that will help with your problems too.

I'm sorry you caught this horrible virus! Hope you feel better soon!

There's some great info on this site!

[mkat52]

Thank you and Im so sorry for your contaction as well! The shooting pains & itching stopped for me after I quit eating nuts, chocolate and coffee. That helped a lot. It seems I am getting an OB a little right now but Im assuming its because I quit taking the Lysine & Oregeno Oil and we had sex a few days ago. I quite the anti-virals because I dont trust whats in that shit. Have you tried oregeno oil or anti-virals?

[marju116]

I've tried oregano oil and it does help. I just get worried about ingesting the strong of an oil. It is about the only thing that really does make me feel normal again. The olive leaf extract helps a little too. And acupuncture. But still, I have pins/needles feeling and burning sensation all along my nerves in my back and neck. This is awful.

[mkat52]

Now Im having an ob and want to die so seriously- this site ist very helpful for support

[WCSDancer2010]

@mkat52

 

I have to keep this short as I'm going out of town but there are a bunch of things you can do to knock OB's down and there are people who are dealing with the nerve issues here who may be able to help you with some of the options there ( @2legit2quit )

 

Here's some things you can do to try to figure out what may be triggering your symptoms and other things you can do to knock the symptoms and OB's down...

 

And I know this may be hard to believe, but it WILL get better .... at least to some extent ... learning what you can do to at least reduce symptoms often helps to reduce the stress... and stress is the #1 trigger for herpes.... so it's a viscous cycle when you have symptoms and then get stressed about them.

 

And yes your BF can give you oral... I wouldn't do when you have symptoms esp an OB ... but only 1% of all oral herpes is HSV2 because H2 doesn't like the mouth area... so simple precautions should be all you need to worry about.

 

Treatments/medications

 

I suggest you keep a journal of what you are eating, activities, stressors, etc ... see if you can see a pattern for what makes it worse. I often say that Herpes is like a "first responder" to the health of your body ... although in the first few months, it's often just that your body needs time to figure out how to get it under control.

 

Second - attack it from the outside ... I'm going to put a bunch of links but generally Epsom Salts baths (drop a double handful of the salts between your legs so its concentrated there), followed by thorough drying (even using a hair drier to get it really dry), maybe going commando, and using Bactine (which helps to kill the virus AND numb it thanks to the lidocaine in it) ... or my favorite, Ammonium Alum ... but there's LOTS of suggestions in the links. I find if you attack it from the outside, the inside can do it's job better :)

 

http://herpeslife.com/herpes-forum/discussion/6024/dealing-with-outbreaks#latest includes links below

http://supporttruthanddialog.com/easy-simple-self-help-tips-for-relief-from-herpes-outbreaks/

http://herpeslife.com/herpes-forum/discussion/4810/bactine-for-oral-and-even-genital-herpes

https://herpeslife.com/herpes-forum/discussion/7595/bactine-wipes-and-some-motivational-quotes

http://herpeslife.com/herpes-treatment/#more-2122

http://herpeslife.com/herpes-forum/discussion/1802/going-the-natural-route

http://herpeslife.com/herpes-forum/discussion/1624/herpes-medication-genital-hsv-1-how-to-keep-herpes-outbreaks-clean-dry#Item_22 My discussion amonium Alum)

http://herpeslife.com/herpes-forum/discussion/1496/bathroom-time-

[Gina99]

Hey I just had my first OB. The lesions are now completely gone but there is an intense itch and some tingling. I’m finding it difficult to sleep because the tingling literally wakes me up 😞

were you able to figure out what was happening ?

[CatMom]

@Gina99 are you on any AV meds? I also had the tingle and the itch but I assumed it was from hesling or in my mind the medication kicking the herpes back into its home. I dont know if thats true or its something else but it did go away for me. I still have a slight tingle (almost like I overworked my legs) in the thighs but thats it. Day for of a 10 day AV from my first OB. Hope this helps. 

[Gina99]

@CatMom hey thank you for you answer. My outbreak was two weeks ago and they gave me a 7 day treatment. It ended this Thursday the 26th. I went back to see my doctor and she said since the swab test hasn’t gotten back yet she doesn’t wanna give me more valtrex in case it isn’t herpes.... even tho it obviously. I gues it’s a legal thing. 😞 

[CatMom]

@Gina99 you’re welcome. It probably is a legal thing. Do you feel better after the 7 day?

[Gina99]

@CatMom

i feel better in that my lesions are gone and my lymph nodes don’t hurt anymore. The tingling and itching tho are driving me crazy, when I take a look down there.... there’s nothing. It’s healed. So I’m not sure what to do... I wonder if outrun vagisil (anti itch cream) will or if it will irritate ?

[CatMom]

@Gina99 thats good the lesions are gone. I know the tingle for me is slight but more scary than irritating. As for the vagisil im not sure because everyone’s different. Summers eve wipes actually made me have an outbreak or at least I think so. I thought it was contact dermatitis. Try it out but keep in mind that there can be a chance. Maybe try an epsom salt bath with lavender essential oils. 

[Gina99]

@CatMom

okay i will try the salts 🙂 thanks so much for all your concern and advise