Serves me right i guess

[JonSt]

Im a socially awkward person. But i remembered how great a feeling it was to have a girl in your arms. I felt powerful, invincible even. Like i could do virtually anything and get away with it. i visited sex workers but always made it a point to keep it safe. Those session were just simple, no sex, not even oral sex. So imagine the horror when i found my first ever cold sore.

 

I just wanted to have a good time. From then on i was filled with a certain bitterness. Bitter that i have hurt my parents withoud them knowing, screwing up my chances of a real relationship. On some days i just dont bother at all. A fear i now have is spreading it to a loved one. Id be dammed is someone else pays the price for my mistake. I woudnt be able to kiss my baby when he is born, wont get to smell that sweet baby fragrance (that i swear all babies have). Im just hoping for a cure to pop up.

[tooyoungtocrumble]

JonSt, you can still have a real relationship, it'll just time to find someone that can accept t. There's nothing wrong with that. As for kissing babies, no one should kiss them as newborns, but once they reach about a year old the virus can't get hurt them the way it can when they're infants. Still never kiss a child or anyone for that matter with a active sore.