Full STD/STI Test results-Both 1 & 2

[LovelyBones]

I’ve just been diagnosed with both H1 & H2. Everything else was negative. I’ve no signs, symptoms or knowledge of this disease. I immediately told the previous men I’ve had sex with. Three men. Two reacted calmly, thanked me for telling them and are planning to get tested. The other is really confused and upset. I’m confused too. I spent yesterday crying until my eyes swelled shut. Today, I contacted my best friend and cousin to tell them about my diagnosis. Both were extremely supportive and even made jokes to help me laugh. I’m not sure how I’ll feel tomorrow. Tomorrow is New Years Eve. I’ve declined offers to hang out and celebrate the New Year but I don’t want to be alone. I’m not sure how I got this nor am I angry or in an accusative state.

 

I’m not sure what else to say...maybe I’m tired from crying or maybe I’m numb from the news. I’m 36 years old, I’ve already been married and have had a child that’s nearly grown. The past 8 months I spent single and dating. I enjoyed the spotinaiety and attention I’ve recieved from men but now I’m scared that it’s all over. Will I ever be desired again? Will a man risk this for me?