Scared

[Jenn88]

Please do not judge me. I have only disclosed to my immediate family and when I did my mother put me down and bashed me so I have been hesitant about telling others... but So I’m feeling immense guilt for not disclosing to someone I care about the most... he is actually the person I think gave me H but I haven’t told him anything about my diagnosis bc I’m scared if I do he will look at me differently and I will lose him as a friend. At this point I’m scared he will be so mad that I didn’t say anything from the beginning. 

 

I love him him and I love our friendship. I need him in my life but I’m scared. How do I tell him now? I am 99 percent sure he gave it to me, I’m not even sure if he knows he has it. But I feel that at this point bc it has been 2 months me telling him not he will feel I got it from someone else in these 2 months and he will slut shame me 

[sweetlove884]

I imagine that if you're honest and explain it just like you explained it here, he will be understanding.  

[Jenn88]

ANd if he isn’t and I lose the one person I’ve ever loved? 

[organicmama]

14 hours ago, Jenn88 said:

ANd if he isn’t and I lose the one person I’ve ever loved? 

Jenn, if he doesn't understand and appreciate your honesty - he is not worth keeping around.

[Jenn88]

This has me so depressed like it’s the first time I’m finding out all over again