The anxiety is consuming me...

[MissGuided]

I got tested at 7.5 weeks last week for hsv2 igg, and it was still at 0.06. Same as it was when I had labs done at 2 weeks and 4 weeks (I know, I’ve gotten tested a lot, don’t judge me, lol) I know I’m not out of the woods yet, and while it’s calmed me a little to know it hasn’t started elevating so far, I am still waiting for it to start going up. 

I have hsv1 already, orally, have had it since I was 19. I know that this can also slow seroconversion, to have one form already. But does that mean it goes more slowly and would show like a week or so later, or months later, or whattttttt?! 

Today, my throat is sore. This is what currently has me stressed out the most. I sit and wonder, is it just a sore throat, or is it related. 

Mind you, I know I’m being ridiculous, i know i need to suck it up and test in a few more weeks, again, but I feel like I count every day until I can go and get lab work done again. I don’t know at what point negative lab work will even make me feel ok. I’m seriously a hypochondriac now  someone shook my hand today after saying hello, and I immediately ran to the bathroom to wash my hands, and am still thinking about it. Absolutely ridiculous of me, and yet I can’t seem to help it.

My ob and my family doctor both told me that at this point, negative labwork at 7.5 weeks, I should quit worrying. I told them about my googling and that many reccoMend 12-16 weeks to be the quit worrying point, but they are insistent that I should relax and that I most likely will not seroconverse. 

Ugh. I wish I could hibernate for the next few weeks. It is what it is, but it’s like, if it’s gonna be positive, just let me know now so I can accept it and move on. This constant worrying about every weird body ache or dot or sore throat, it’s killing me. I just want to feel like myself again. The constant worrying is changing me. 

I kissed someone and about had a melt down that I could of gotten something from that. Ughhhhh. 

Ok, sorry. Vent session over. Comments appreciated, I’d love the conversation and possibly some on-site to my levels, test ranges, and maybe just a little consoling. Thank you all for always being so supportive here. 

[Victory_in_Defeat]

I know exactly how you feel right now. Well, maybe not exactly. I was... "exposed" to someone who recently tested positive for HSV2. The exact same day they got the positive results, is when I begun to develop symptoms.

I went to the doctor and he assured me that my symptoms were not herpes related.... though I still may have herpes. He ordered a blood test even though I knew it was too soon. Like you, I read what all the forums had to say about waiting AT LEAST 4-6 weeks. I waited for an extra week, but even then, this would have made it approximately 3 weeks since my exposure. The results came back negative.

I'm currently playing the waiting game, and every red spot, itch, burn, ANYTHING sends me to the bathroom with the brightest flashlight I have, inspecting myself for these dreaded sores. I'm an Iraq ware veteran and I have to say, I have never been so stressed in my entire life.

I will say, I've read the words of the toughest people I've never met on this forum. I really do hope the best for you. You've already passed milestones I have yet to get to lol.

[MissGuided]

32 minutes ago, Victory_in_Defeat said:

I know exactly how you feel right now. Well, maybe not exactly. I was... "exposed" to someone who recently tested positive for HSV2. The exact same day they got the positive results, is when I begun to develop symptoms.

I went to the doctor and he assured me that my symptoms were not herpes related.... though I still may have herpes. He ordered a blood test even though I knew it was too soon. Like you, I read what all the forums had to say about waiting AT LEAST 4-6 weeks. I waited for an extra week, but even then, this would have made it approximately 3 weeks since my exposure. The results came back negative.

I'm currently playing the waiting game, and every red spot, itch, burn, ANYTHING sends me to the bathroom with the brightest flashlight I have, inspecting myself for these dreaded sores. I'm an Iraq ware veteran and I have to say, I have never been so stressed in my entire life.

I will say, I've read the words of the toughest people I've never met on this forum. I really do hope the best for you. You've already passed milestones I have yet to get to lol.

Thanks, yes we are in the exact same mentality, it sounds. I have had a mirror in the corner with a flashlight for weeks now. I bought a box of gloves and was constantly looking every day. One week, I went to the doctors 3 times 😕 

[Victory_in_Defeat]

I know the feeling. I've avoided my doctor because I felt that he really did not know about herpes. Why else would he order a blood test so soon without the thought of a follow-up blood test? Luckily (and unluckily) for me, there is google.

I still have some symptoms that I can't explain. Well, the only explanation is herpes. I've spent so many hours of my free time researching herpes and I have looked at more pictures of infected male genitalia than I care to admit. Like really.... a lot of male genitalia.

Honestly, I'm afraid to have hope. Hope will only make the "Positive" results that much more difficult to accept.

But keep your head up, regardless of the diagnosis, we'll all be here for you (unless it's negative, then we may never see you again lol). Remember, perseverance defines your character and life is far from over.

[blurneworder]

On 11/14/2018 at 6:52 PM, Victory_in_Defeat said:

I know the feeling. I've avoided my doctor because I felt that he really did not know about herpes. Why else would he order a blood test so soon without the thought of a follow-up blood test? Luckily (and unluckily) for me, there is google.

I still have some symptoms that I can't explain. Well, the only explanation is herpes. I've spent so many hours of my free time researching herpes and I have looked at more pictures of infected male genitalia than I care to admit. Like really.... a lot of male genitalia.

Honestly, I'm afraid to have hope. Hope will only make the "Positive" results that much more difficult to accept.

But keep your head up, regardless of the diagnosis, we'll all be here for you (unless it's negative, then we may never see you again lol). Remember, perseverance defines your character and life is far from over.

Have you tested positive? If so, how and how long after initial infection did you find out?

[MissGuided]

7 hours ago, blurneworder said:

Have you tested positive? If so, how and how long after initial infection did you find out?

I tested at 10 weeks this last Monday for hsv2, negative. It’s been >0.2 at 2 weeks, 4 weeks, 7.5 weeks, and now 10 weeks. I go again at 12 weeks.