["My herpes giver" vs. "I caught herpes"]

I got it from a man I've been having sex with for 2 years I'm still so mad if it's any possible way i could have caused it I wouldn't be so mad but now I can't do anything about it. I still love him tho and I don't know what to do 

[Can't stop crying....(New HSV2)]

Yea the everyone has it hurts. Bc just last week I thought i wasn't everyone. And the way the doctor came in to tell me keeps playing over and over "Yeah you definitely have herpes"  and I just started crying and he looking at me like why are u crying everyone has it 

[I'm so mad]

I'm 16 and I've been diagnosing with genital herpes. I've been in a 2 year relationship with my boyfriend  he got me pregnant at 14 we were too young so our parents didn't want us to keep it I just stuck to him ever since. He has this ex gf who he was cheated on me multiple times with and who as tried to fight me over him multiple times she says she loves him. But he's saying she the only other person he been with and how someone who go so crazy over him just goes and does this and I don't even know whether to believe him that it was only her I don't know how i feel about myself he was so adamant about me not talking to anyone else and I didn't. I thought he cheated so much bc he thought i was doing the same thing so I worked so hard to prove to him that I wasn't. He still cheated. I don't know if I can leave him I don't know how i even feel about us anymore and he's acting like this shit his normal fuck up like it's just him cheating again and like he dosent  get that he ruined my life and his just bc he couldn't stay faithful or even protected. I know he feels bad bc he cried and in the 2 years I've been with him I've never seen him do that and thats when he had to tell me but after that day he just actin as if I didn't do everything for him and all I asked for in return is loyalty and u give me herpes and I haven't even cursed him out yet bc he was so sad and he said he didn't even wanna be here and how sorry he was and this was just Thursday and he's acting like now its just over and it was 1 bump then over the weekend it got so bad. I'm just so mad and I don't know what to do with it