[didnt disclose and had sex]

hello

so i have genital hsv2. i got it about 2.5 years ago from a guy who didnt disclose his status to me. its really affected my mental health and i have had a hard time dating since that happened.

i did have a boyfriend for almost a year afterwards. we hooked up drunk and i didnt disclose and it gave me alot of anxiety but i eventually told him and he was fine with it.

i also take 500 of valicloyvir daily.

so i started seeing this new guy and told myself i wouldnt hook up with him until i disclosed but i did when we were drunk without a condom..and then we hung out again and had sex.

i hate myself so much because im just so ashamed and embarassed and fear the rejection so bad when i really like this new guy im hanging out with but now i feel like ive betrayed his trust and have made things a million times worse. i dont know what im looking for here im just feeling really low and dont know what to do next 😞