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Ladyangxo

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  1. Update!! After a week and a half he contacted me and just said he read up on it and has a better understanding... And kept saying he appreciates how honest I was and still wanted to see me :-) We went out Friday night and everything was normal as usual and he did stay with me the night cuddling, making out and watching movies.. Nothing happened but I can probably see it in the future and if it doesn't lead to something serious or a relationship.. It feels good to be accepted. He left Saturday around 3 and texted me later that day that he had a great time with me and would like to meet up again soon :-)

  2. Soooo... I been talking to this fantastic gentlemen for 3 months now... We have gone on 3 dates only due to that he lives an hour and a half from me and due to my schedule and kids and his schedule and son but we still managed to keep in constant communication. Last date we had we had dinner at a nice little restaurant over looking the ocean with live reggae music and drinks.. after we walked the beach, held hands, talked and kissed a lot. Later that night he took me home and I asked him if he wanted to stay the night since it was late and he could just drive back home in the morning and he agreed.. we watched TV.. talked a bit and went to bed.. nothing happened because I would not allow it and I did speak to him about getting intimate and that I wasn't ready and he said he had no problem he just wanted to hold me and sleep.. (how great it that?) Any ways morning came we went out for coffee and lunch and he then left back home.. everything was going great and in the back of my mind I know I needed to tell him that I have HSV2 but I was also being greedy and selfish and just wanted to enjoy the moment. Ok to get to the point.. he texted me a few days later that he wanted to see me again and wanted to plan a weekend road trip with me.. I knew at this point I needed to tell him.. so later that day he calls me to set everything up and before he starts I told him I need to tell him something.. I told him that I really liked him and the way the relationship was going but before we get any closer and invest more time I needed to tell him something.. I said 2 years ago I was diagnosed with HSV2.. I know all the risk and how to manage it well.. I wanted to give you the option to make the choice whether to continue seeing me or to end it.. I told him I believe in being honest and transparent and I feel I can trust you with this very personal side of me. I told him to please ask me any questions and to take his time to think about it and to research it..... (silence) Then he says well firstly thanks for your honesty.. I'm really not familiar with HSV2 so I guess I have to do some research... I said sure and we hung up... I didn't hear from him that night and in the morning I receive a text that said Hey sweetie.. so I know we said we would hang out tonight but I need some more time to think about the whole situation before we take things further... I hope its okay with you.. I really like you and I enjoy the time we spend together but I have to be sure that Im being fair to you and to myself.. I truly appreciate that you were open and honest with me about such a personal subject, I know you didn't have to do that so thank you.... I replied with I can respect that and that was the end of it... I haven't heard from him since yesterday morning which is only 1 day but I am crushed.. my heart feels like it has been stabbed. I appreciate him that he was man enough to express his feelings and not just disappear. I don't know what to think or do and Im literally sick to my stomach.. I have disclosed to 2 other men and they were ok with it.. it never went further but we are still friends but this one... this one was different.. I felt different and in my heart I guess I was hoping for a different reaction and acceptance. I don't think I can bear another disclosure.. I guess Im just looking for advice on what to do... just move on and let it go or reach out to him again??? Im so crushed and feel so unwanted.

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