[found out 4 days ago. feeling like it's the end. What next.]

Thanks so much everyone. It has almost been 3 or 4 weeks since knowing. The tears have stopped but still feel doomed.

[found out 4 days ago. feeling like it's the end. What next.]

Thank you both for your comments. I really do hope this gets easier. Is it constantly on your mind even though u have had it for 5 months? I had lunch with my brothers today and we laughed and joked but that thought was still there..still in my head. That I'm the only one in the world with this.

[H Buddies, unite!]

Need a buddy. I'm female you can be either or...just want someone to talk with. I'm in the Wichita, Kansas Area. Just found out 4 days ago. Thanks

[found out 4 days ago. feeling like it's the end. What next.]

The scariest thing is I don't want to pass to my 2 year old. She is constantly on me around me, sleeps by me. I'd die if I hurt her with this. I been crying since I found out. I'm a 37 year old single mom. Everything was going so well and now it's all ruined. I'm ruined. I had unprotected see more than once. I made my decision now I'm paying the price. I need help. I can't care for my children like I should. I can't hug them or drink after them or let them share anything with me anymore. The world is spinning. I'm not optimistic one bit. I wish I could close my eyes and go back to a month ago. Either that or get this life over with. Years of this physical pain...I can't take it. Nobody will ever want to be with me now.