[Depressed]

10 hours ago, Kware261 said:

Has anybody else went through a horrible depression. I’ve had hsv2 for 3 years now and i feel like it’s been hitting me hard for the past month. A therapist couldn’t help me , depression pills couldn’t help. It’s sad that I’m still in shock that this is my life. I literally have nobody in reality that can relate to me or has ever felt how i have felt . And a guy that i want I’m just so afraid . I feel so abnormal . I know it’s my emotions talking but it’s been hitting me really hard lately.

Hi, sweetie.  Getting diagnosed was, I believe, the root cause of my depression and anxiety.  Just feeling like everything good and fulfilling in my life had been ripped away...so, absolutely, I feel your pain.  I have been living with this diagnosis for almost 20 years, and, I have been through many different stages, including the 5 stages of grief...(*shock, denial, anger, bargaining, depression, *testing, acceptance).  How many times have I bargained with some unknown deity to have my freedom and 'old life' back again?  In reality, though, having this affliction can really help you to see things more clearly.  I was headed down a bad path, when I was diagnosed.  So, perhaps, it helped me redirect myself towards something more positive.  All I know is, everything happens for a reason...nothing is accidental.  I hold onto this mantra when times get tough.  

[The Feeling is Coming Back]

I am an oldtimer in the herpes game, and, I can tell you, it definitely gets easier.  I even put my status right in my dating profiles now...it WILL get easier, but, be as honest as your fear will let you be...(cause, really, the fear of rejection is the real thing we are trying to avoid). I have fumbled, denied, and, flat out hated my status as a person  with herpes.  I've done some shady things due to not knowing how to handle it.  The most important person you need to be accountable to is yourself.  If you can look yourself in the mirror, and still like the person you see, then you are on the right track.

20 hours ago, DoHope35 said:

Sometimes I don’t know how to feel. Sometimes I am happy and I feel alright but then when I get home by myself the feeling comes back. I’ve been diagnosed with HSV 1 & 2 since February and since then I have had 3 outbreaks. I don’t know if this is enough to classify as doing suppressive therapy but I am just over this whole thing. I am just really down, and I really don’t know what to even say or write. I am official done with my old boyfriend as everything that goes wrong with him or anytime we get in an argument me having HSV is the first thing bought up.  He even told me that no man would want me or put up with me because I have herpes. That crushed me, and I never want to talk to anyone again because he really said negative things about me. He makes me wonder if he would spread my business on social media or what could possibly happen. I’m so scared to disclose for that reason. I just don’t know what to do. 

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