[my life is over]

It already has hindered my life. @regularguy , While I appreciate the perspective I still think it's a little different for someone like me. I was 17 when l lost my virginity and 18 when I was sexually assaulted and therefore I didn't have any sexual encounters for a year. So since I'm 20 I have only had around 2 years of a normal adult life, and even then it was a lot of dealing with the past. Statistically, I have only had an encounter with 1 guy who wasn't a boyfriend, and that makes me really angry how unlikely this is. While you sound encouraging, for me it i quite clear based on my past experiences and the unlikeliness of this happening that is a clear sign that I just do not deserve companionship, happiness, or a fulfilling life, especially since I feel like my life was just starting and it is now effectively over. It is nice that you have hope, but I feel like t the end of the day I just don't deserve any and that I should deal with my unfortunate life in a way that would end it sooner rather than later.

[Disclosing, casual sex, and one night stands... college]

I'm in college and just got diagnosed, and can't find anything about this either. For me I'm just assuming college, my sex life, and any other sort of a life for that matter is ruined.

[my life is over]

I'm only 20 years years old and I just got diagnosed and I feel betrayed and like my life is over. I've only had unprotected encounter 3 times, 2 were with exes that promised they were clean and another was a mistake that I made after a breakup, but I can't help but feel a if the whole thing is unfair. I have friends that have had unprotected sex with 20+ people (mostly random, never long-term relationships) and I had only 1 of those experiences and it was brief and my life has to end because of it. I can't imagine even talking to a guy ever again because I just feel like a walking disease, let alone even telling someone. Also it's not like the person I got it from told me so I don't even see the point if protection is used. Did anyone else get it so young and have a normal young adulthood? I feel like the best years of my life have been talking away suddenly and that I don't deserve it. If anyone can post reassuring stories of younger people getting diagnosed who managed to have a somewhat normal life despite being diseased please do, thanks.