I'll get straight to the point as I've been stuck and depressed about this for 5 months I'm not sure how to move forward,
8 years ago after having a casual hook up I had a single pimple/red blister lesion close to the base of my penis, I popped it and a lot of straw like fluid and blood came out it was painful and it left a ulceration type lesion that was itchy and healed up a week or two later. I could have sworn it was herpes but had no clue about testing so went for an IGG hsv-1 and hsv-2 test multi times everything came up negative even months later. Over the years I've had itching sometimes and redness but nothing out of the usual. Fast forward 8 years later on dec 28th I felt a sharp tingle/sting and later that night checked it out and I had a singlel small open abrasion type sore did not hurt or itch, assumed it may have been from my zipper but I don't know if it was. Since then I've been freaking out I've had 3 type specific igg blood test, two from quest and one from LabCorp everything is negative. My doctor says I'm negative and that I can feel confident in my results and move forward and that I don't need to disclose but what of this is genital hsv1? What the heck should I do? I can't afford a westren blot ATM. Should I just inform partners that i may have the coldsore virus like over 50% of the population even though I don't test positive for it just in case. I don't was to specify that I may have genital hsv1 because I don't test positive but at the same time I'm suspicious. Do I just forget about it because if I do have it I'm no more infectious than everyone else who gets coldsores and dont disclose. I'm driving my self crazy. Every blood test I take is negative and I can't wait another 8 years for a swab. HELP. I'm thinking about saying I test positive for hsv1 and leave it at that just incase I actually do have it. This is the worst predicament to be in.