There is nothing rational about anxiety. That is why my therapist has sent me to find someone who may be living with the same feelings this long after diagnosis. Fear of rejection reaches farther than potential lovers. I know I’ve somehow lucked into a relationship with a very forgiving man, but rejection can take many other forms- from family, friends, coworkers, and being the target of jokes. The words, “Ugh, I’d just go ahead and kill myself if I ever got an STD” have been ingrained in my brain since hearing them as a teenager. I know I am not struggling with the acceptance from others, I’m struggling with acceptance of myself.