VintageSoul

Hi Im new to all of this after being married. I made a post recently about my story and im still reeling but getting better. No outbreak ever that i know about but now my brain is rattling off every little itch or weirdness ive ever had. My current partner has been supportive and still wants to see me regardless. (He recently got tested and awaiting results so that could change) but i finally saw the numbers for myself. The dr claims that high numbers only indicate that i have it and not how long. My first thought was a fling I had after my divorce. That partner claims to have never had any outbreaks and is supposedly going to get tested. I made an appointment with my actual gynecologist next week but can someone help me decipher this?

Hi everyone. Heres my story. I am recently divorced and had unprotected sex with two partners since. 1 is a regular partner. The other a fling. Including them, I've had 8 sexual partners since i was 15. I'm 33 now. Filled with anxiety after the fling a month ago, I went and got tested. I never had any noticeable symptoms so the dr was reluctant to do the igg blood test but i told her to do it. I called for results 4 days later and over the phone was told i tested positive for hsv2. Was told no numbers and if i had more questions to make an appointment but its "not that big of a deal". I've been an anxious mess since. I went to a different health clinic and she was helpful sort of and tried to get my results from the drs office with no luck. Im hoping to get into my dr tomorrow. Should i re-test? Do i tell my recent partners? The clinic dr said i could have had it for years and not known because i was never tested. Could my exhusband have had it and not know? Could it have been the 2 recent partners? Ive been so naive to these things and that makes me feel worse. I can deal with having it i guess but my mental capacity cant handle the fact that i may have exposed a recent partner because i was not honest with him about the other fling because i must be a horrible person. Please help. Im a mess. Ive been looking at my genitals in a mirror every night analyzing every little thing. I haven't slept in days.