LoveMeFirst

I have hsv 2 and have had it for about 2yrs now. It has changed me tremendously. I stayed with my supplier thinking it would just be easy to stay with him and make it work, that way I would never have to disclose, and since we both was in the same boat I figured we could be each other support system. Boy was I wrong!! Lol. We grieve differently. Over time I started to feel less loved. Eventually I grew tired of just being there and called the relationship quits. Now I’m here and I’m scared. I have let myself go. I have no interest in being pretty. I don’t want nobody to be interested in me, it’s easier that way. No one knows that I have hsv but him. Apart of me wants to tell the world and get it over with but a bigger part of me don’t want to be judged. This is exhausting lol.. I just wanted to vent I guess, thanks for reading