Virgeaux

Thank you so much for your kind words and taking the time to respond, @mr_hopp . It was actually my sisters idea to join an online community to help with coping since she and my mom can’t quite help me as much as they want to because they have no idea what exactly I’m going through. Today has felt so up and down. I started the day off being indifferent and then I was laughing and then reality hit and I felt down again. I’m going to spend time with my best friend tonight (she also knows of my diagnosis) and she is so on board with helping me get back to a healthy mental space. I do have so much support, but it’s still so easy to feel lonely right now. Im taking it day by day, that’s all I can do. I go to the doctor tomorrow for a follow up chat and get more information from her regarding HSV-2. I hope to feel well soon and I’m taking steps to do so. It’s so hard to do though when I know so many people are so ignorant and uneducated on this virus. I think people should choose to educate themselves so if someone chooses to disclose to them then they won’t make that person feel bad about it when they’re already having a hard time grappling with it. Again, Thank you thank you thank you for your response. You are a kind soul. I look forward to being a part of this community.

I’m a 25 year old female. I’ve never been the type to have casual sex until this past summer. I had one ulcer pop up that I thought was just irritation from pads bc I seem to get one almost every time I’m on my period. I took a blood test and came back HSV2 positive. 5.16. I have no idea how long I’ve had this, I have no idea who I got it from or who I could’ve passed it to. I feel more anxiety around the thought of who I could’ve passed it to and how my love/sex life is going to be from this point forward. I’m so depressed. I just wanna lay in bed and do nothing. I’ve been forcing myself to go to the gym and I’m going to redo my bedroom with the help and support from my mom and sister (both of whom I’ve told about my diagnosis). I just feel disgusting and overwhelmed and like I’m in a horror movie. As someone who has been a hypochondriac her whole life, I was not expecting this test to come back as positive. I was just thinking it was me overthinking the worst, per my usual. I’ve cut everyone off, my temper has been so quick lately, I have no energy, I just feel lost. I don’t know where to go from here or how to deal with this. I feel like all my joy is gone. I want to cry all the time. I just started being confident in myself and loving myself and all of that is down the drain. I feel 2 feet tall. And like I’m carrying around the world’s biggest secret by a ball and chain. I just feel empty and numb. Please God someone help me to feel better. I just need support and advice from people who deal with this too, considering I can’t talk about this with anyone else. I feel like I have a permanent dark cloud over my head these days and I can’t seem to shake it.