Leaf in the wind

I was having UTI symptoms but my urine tests always came back negative. So my primary doc tested me for everything and I came back positive for genital herpes. I have several doctors telling me I have genital herpes and then some others saying I have oral. Oral runs in my family. But now I have the ER nurse saying that if it was oral then it would show up as that. I am asexual and I never want kids so I always make my partners use condoms. We’re always safe. The only thing I can think of to how I got this is when I was raped in college. I don’t want to tell my family. I already had an uncomfortable conversation with my boyfriend and he’s freaking out because he’s never heard of this before. I never had a breakout in my vaginal area. No legions no anything. I did have a cold sore once. I am just freaking out and spent most of the day crying and feeling like garbage because society has that terrible way of making anyone feel like trash with this diagnosis. Advice would be extraordinarily helpful.