Well, here I am. I thought I had the beginning of a nice relationship with a new guy.. After about a month, we were going to have sex, and I was insisting on a condom. I knew that I had herpes, and I did not want to disclose it at that time. As time went on, nothing physical happened, because he basically loses his erection with a condom. Well, he went and got tested. I ended up telling him about my condition. It was horrible and I cried. He seemed to come back to me, but he did not call as much. After about a week of seeing him after this disclosure, he told me he did not want to expose himself to "that." and what would he tell the next girl? He is 51 years old, and he can't even get it up to save his life. I have never told anyone about this, because I felt so bad. I feel even worse now. I can't ever tell anyone again, this was so painful. I tried so hard to do the right thing, and I thought he cared for me. I feel terrible now, and I don't know what to do. I tried so hard to do the right thing, and now I feel rejected, dirty and horrible. Please help!