collegechik1

Hi, I recently found out I have herpes which parts of me still think I don't. II have only had 2 sexually partners, 1 being my ex of 4 years and now by current partner of 3 months( I will call him b). It was love at first sight for B and I we instantly connected on so many levels it's crazy. He made me feel a certain type of way I had never felt before, the feeling was amazing. He felt the same way because within 3 weeks he told me he loved me (I know it's fast put he said it just felt right). Well after having sex on several different occasions I developed a cut type sore on my vagina neither one of us thought anything of it. It didn't hurt no burning sensation I thought it was because I was a little dry, nevertheless I just didn't want it there. I put neosporin, hydrocortisone, and monistat on it, it started to heal but was still there. I decided go to the clinic and the doc said it was herpes and she did a culture, she said the test may not come out right since my sore was healed. Well I got my results back and it said positive. Which I was shocked and surprised. I told B about it and he said he got tested before we had sex and it was negative has I did to and my test was negative then as well. B went and got another herpes test and his results came back negative. Well, needless to say he thought I was cheating which I haven't been. He said that me having herpes doesn't change the fact that he loves me, but he just needs time to think about all this. It's been 3 days and I haven't heard from him. I don't know if he'll ever call me again. I'm devastated 1 because I have an incurable disease and 2 because I possible lost the love of my life. I feel like I'm digesting and no one will ever love me again, I will never get married, have kids. I'm just lost. By the way I don't think he gave it to me, it's just a gut feeling that my ex possibly is the culprit because he cheated on me a numerous amount of times. Sorry I'm all over the place. I just found out 5 days ago.