i'm 17 years old. just a normal teenage girl up until april 16th, 2014.
its been two days since i was diagnosed.
i'm in so much pain. the hospital said this is the worst outbreak they've seen all year. and on top of having my first outbreak, i'm also experiencing my first UTI. apparently the UTI is what triggered my first outbreak.
i've spent my entire spring break laying in bed unable to move. in and out of the hospital. my girlfriend (yes, i'm a lesbiain) has had to practically carry me to the bathroom, and it hurts so bad to pee that i scream at the top of my lungs.
i don't know how i got it, everyone i've been with said they were clean.
i don't know anything about this disease. besides the fact that it doesn't have a legit cure, so i'm stuck with it.
is it fatal?
will i never be able to touch my girlfriend ever again?
will i have to tell my school nurse?
will gym class hurt while i have an outbreak?
will people look at me different?
how long will this outbreak last?
will every outbreak be this unbearable?
should i change my sheets after the outbreak? i'm at like the oozing stage where it gets all over my underwear, pants, and bed.
why is it so bloody?
should i be this afraid?
i feel like my life is over. please help.