I had my first outbreak in 2011, and it was really the nasty kind which left me in bed for almost a week. Since then, I've had small outbreaks, but none in the last couple of 3 years I would say, all smaller and kinder. During easter I went to the hospital because of shortness of breath, nausea, pressure over the chest, exhaustion and all of those fun stress related symptoms. Then proceeded to sleep for many hours a day and sure enough, the outbreak came hand in hand with the stress. Worst outbreak since 2011, it was almost like getting it 'a new'. Thing is, I got a hold of Valtrex, started taking it, and it should have past by now. I'm at the end of that treatment, but I'm still red and sore like a baboon's arse, and I can't remember it was like this the last time I was at the end of a treatment. Now I have no ulcers or blisters, just really, really red and sore. And it is like the redness is travelling, before it was more isolated to certain areas and now it has moved a bit while I've been on this medication. My doctors wants me to continue with the Valtrex and say I might have to go on a longer treatment, but I never had this problem with Acilovir that always cleared stuff up. Was it because the treatment was started so late into the outbreak? Or just because this is a really tricky, nasty outbreak?
Furthermore, I've also managed to get thrush (candida), like crazy. It is like a milkfactory from my genitals and it is anything but pleasant. I've done a bit of the Canesten externally but wonder about using the strong internal stuff while I'm still sore between my legs thanks to the herpes?
Also; I need some peptalk. Partners are being really nice and good about things. I know it is connected with stress, but together with the stress it just feels really shit. Neither my body NOR my mind is well, and a part of handling the stress have now become about my genitals. For me, sex and sexual contact is a way to unstress, it is a way to shut down all that stuff around me in the world. And I know there is more to sex than genital contact, but by gods it is hard to feel like I want any physical contact at all. Cute kittens, words of encouragement, silly GIFs', anything is welcome really.