Angelina

Well he's going to run into a lot of people who have hsv1 since the majority of the population has it. Honestly, I think he's overreacting.

Thank you all. Mel_b, yes it's like, if he accepts it why can't I? But I'm afraid he'll get angry if he indeeds catches it. I think even just passing it on would scare me. But honestly, it doesn't bother me having it when I'm by myself. I don't feel dirty all though I used too. He on the other hand likes to ask me why I ruined myself by not staying a virgin right when we're having sex. It really irritates me. He says he means it only because he thinks I'm pretty and that I shouldn't have let anyone ruin me because I'm beautiful. I think he shouldn't say things like that at all because it's like he's reminding me on a daily bases on how I through my life away. Sex is the last place I want to hear that. Dancer, This is a controlling and abusive relationship, you are right. What's worse is that my mom likes him because he has a lot of money and thinks I shouldn't wait too long to get married or find someone. My mom was in abusive relationships in the past and she doesn't seem that in touch. I stayed in this relationship partly to make my mom happy because I was kind of a bad kid that didn't listen and not getting a degree was like the worst thing to her. She really thought I would end up in a trailer park and that never happened. I still have a good job. I never had an abusive boyfriend before so I know what it's like to be independent and to love myself, and that I want back. My Grandma on the other hand said to stick up for myself and not let him kick me around and that it's better to be alone than to be living like that. My Dad doesn't know what's going on yet. Orngpeelmafia, thank you. I am already feeling better even though I'm sad and tempted to go back because I'm not used to being alone. He called constantly all day and wouldn't let me off the phone and it really made it hard for me to enjoy activities. I a giving myself all the love I've been missing for two years and I'm enjoying the peace and quiet. I am able to focus on my work better as well.

Well hello, I'm new here. I have had herpes a while. I'm still young but I am just now coming to terms with this. I got this in early 2000 and there was support groups online but I wasn't able to accept it yet. I was in shock for about a month and then the effect wore off and I got over it, but then I stopped caring about myself as much. I have been able to find partners who accept this but my recent partner has made this very hard to deal with. I have been with my current partner for two years and he doesn't care at all. He doesn't want to use protection, he doesn't want to shower afterwards and recently he tried to force me into bed when I told him I couldn't have sex with him because I was having an outbreak. He went to UC Berkley and he thinks he's better than everyone. He puts me down all the time and acts like I couldn't do better, but it's not because of the herpes, it's because I didn't finish my degree. I recently made the decision to leave him and when I told my mother, she thought it was a bad idea because she likes him even though I told her what he says and does. I'm still leaving him because sex is too hard to deal with with him and he makes me feel bad about myself. It's hard enough worrying that he'll get this, but when he refuses to take precautions, sex becomes something I dread with him. Honestly, I have lost all enjoyment for sex. Sex causes me more anxiety for me than it does pleasure. I don't like sex anymore. Does anyone else feel that way?