Groundhog_day

Thanks so much for the sound advice Some days just feel worse than others and having even one H spot appear sends me into an emotional tailspin . I know stress is a huge trigger for me and I have an unbeliever amount right now. I guess I just wish I was one of those "lucky" people that don't deal with regular outbreaks. Having to take meds (and still have mild symptoms) makes me feel very helpless. It is hard to imagine a "normal life" or days when I don't constantly think about this and basically let it define me completely.-- but the member stories on here are encouraging. Thanks again

So it has been almost a year since I was diagnosed HSV2. It was pretty traumatic and had an ugly primary outbreak. I tested + via swab and it took about 6 months to get a + blood test. The person that gave me this denied it all and blamed me. He was a friend of the family and the whole scenario caused so much conflict and heartache. I started on Valtrex initially then got off. Now I am back on because I am basically always having mild(?) OBs ( no blisters, just a couple mosquito bite tender spots that sometimes turn into sores) I eat healthy, excercise, take vitamins, etc. this last year has been the worst of my life (along with dx) facing divorce, financial ruin, constant family conflict, and single parenthood. I constantly worry about the h and it's effect on my body and life. Facing each day has become harder and harder. I worry this will only get worse and worse. Worried myself into panic attacks and itrrational thinking (like I have it on my face now, or constantly tingling everywhere in my body =somatosize symptoms ?). Also should mention I had issues with OCD , hypochondria, and severe anxiety before I was diagnosed. Is this normal for first year or is the stress what is killing me slowly?? I am otherwise obsessively healthy. And have no other immune issues to my knowledge. Worry that my late anti-body blood test means my body will never fight this :( I guess I am wallowing in self-pity , but I fear this will only get worse or I am over exaggerating my situation in my own mind. This has damaged me physically, emotionally, & financially. I don't know how to come to terms with it all. I don't even care about dating/ sex life because I have accepted that part of my life is over , not strictly because of h alone but because I will never have the self-worth to pursue a healthy relationship. Any advice would help.