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Thank you so much for writing back @WCSDancer2010. You are truly so kind for taking the time to help me. The links you suggested were really wonderful. I look forward to someday (hopefully soon) being as accepting of this and strong as you, and so many on here are. I think it will just take time. You did make me feel better about the move, thank you so much!

First, I'd like to thank all of you who post your stories give support on this site, it's truly helped me over the past few weeks. I was diagnosed with HSV-1 three weeks ago, and although my physical symptoms are mostly gone, I'm not doing so well. It's been three years since my mom passed and during that time I was in and out of depression.. I rarely dated, and never hooked up. Something changed this year, I started to feel like myself again.. I finally become happy, truly happy.. it was such a foreign feeling. I decided to make a move to DC this September which I've been contemplating for some time, I accepted a job there and will be closer to some of my family which I'm really excited about. I've been enjoying my last few months in my current city and really living it up, smiling all the time.. I've been happy. Until four weeks ago when I hooked up with (did not sleep with) someone I'd recently met. I thought I was fine, I'm in my 30s and I never do this.. I'm an independent woman. And it actually felt good... I was still happy. Until I got the diagnosis. I'm now having a really hard time finding any happiness again. I feel very isolated and lonely. I have two people whom I've told and are wonderfully supportive, but I'm so scared to move to a new city. I had prepared myself for being lonely when I arrived, I knew it would take time to meet people and create a network.. but now I feel lonely before I've even left, I feel completely isolated and I'm afraid of compounding that in a new city where I know no one (aside from my family 40 mins away) and will be living alone. Is this a bad time to make this move? how long until I feel that happiness again? Does life ever go back to normal?