Newtothis1

Ive known for three months now. Its hard to talk about and I'm not sure how to feel. I found out in April. I also found out I gave it to my husband. I was exposed by my first husband many years ago and thought I had got lucky and didn't get it. Then I showed up positive. My current husband has been good about it but I feel ashamed and awful cuz I gave it to him. I just recently had my second outbreak and hid it from him. Im not sure what is going on in my head. We don't talk about it. Im losing myself and don't know what to do.