Geminij
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The bump is still there and never fully goes away it itches sometimes after sec it's not like any other herpes bump ive ever had you couldn't swab it because it's like a raised give it's not a sore/ wet/ open blister... Hmph...
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The truth is I just dong know how I will ever find the strength to do this
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Thanks... The thing is im having doubts about which type I have. When I asked the health advisor on the phone she said yeah HSV 2 genital herpes, as though it was HSV 2 because of it's location, she didn't say it like she was reading test results if that makes sense- this is also the 'health advisor' that I spoke to the day before my diagnosis about the small itchy bumps and rash around my vagina to which she said it's not herpes because herpes is painful it doesn't itch (when I was diagnosed the next day I cried and told the doctor and the doctor submitted a formal complaint on my behalf) ... So I'm not really sure which type I have.. It reoccurrrs a loot which would suggest hsv2 but I duno.. Maybe I just have to explain j don't know which type IT is...
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Ing does this mean our children are carriers of herpes?!! Wtf why did I not know this
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So I've been thinking the next step in my journey needs to be to prepare a disclosure script in my head in the hope that this will help me feel more open to even getting to know people because at the moments im presenting myself as being unavailable just to avoid ever being in the situation where I might do it but do it wrong. I wondered if someone experienced could prepare me with a script that I could learn with some facts that I can memorise just so that if I ever got in a situation where I needed to disclose I could.
This whole thing still devastates me.
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It is a deal breaker. So there will be no deals where I'm involved
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I'm not ok with rejection ... I'm not. N I'm fed up of pretending I am ok with rejection.
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I got drunk, I went back with a guy. I hVe been taking suppressants. When I asked him where his condom was he looked and didn't have any so we didn't. But I was going to sleep with him without telling him.
Thoughts?
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I have the implant in my arm and I have the pill to regulate my periods but to be honest o don't take the pill and just accept that I have irregular periods because taking tow forms of contraceptives and anti virals just make me feel like a walking illness. If it doesn't get any better then that's what I will do... But I wonder about what will happen in the future when I decide to come off of birth control... Will my outbreaks be all over the place and prevent me from being able to safely have unprotected sex so that I can get pregnant... I have nightmares even now about giving my baby the disease and it dying.
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6 months in im realising IM getting out breaks everytime I have a period. So my question is- will I always have one evey time I have a period? Or when the antibodies build up over time will they happen less?
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I get Jess in my armpits when I'm stressed or run down, woke up this morning with one just in my groin, where the side of my knickers finish.. It's a raised lump. Hurts to touch/ massage so I stopped touching it lol. Doesn't look great though.
Is this all normal right or should I be freaking out that I have a cancerous cyst in my groin? It seems to have come up at the end of my breakout?
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Yeah I do get he weird shooting pains in legs or feet. There's no saying how often you will get an OB xx
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Try a cold damp towel an ditch it with that? .. :-(
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I had the same discharge too... The discharge was also traumatic for me... I feel your pain but I guess we're in this together xx
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Here it is again... As if periods wernt bad enough ... H comes and goes every month but tonight it's especially itchy. The itch that is so painful to scratch. I still didn't get round to buying any allum or the other stuff that dancer recommended... So feeling crappy about that now...
Again symptoms before the outbreak were different so I can't quite et a hold of the 'pattern' or 'warning signs' yet. This time I had no back ache- good thing because it's agony- but I had literally one sharp short zap feeling in my leg area the night before the blister came. They seem to be quite bobbly blisters this time too... Rather than a red, flat, swollen area, it's more like tiny zits (that I am sure as hell know are not zits) ... This thing is so frustrating When am I going to get a break? June will mark 12 months since I got h.
I'm counting on seeing OBs drastically reduced otherwise I think I'll hVe a meltdown.
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I'm hoping something will change by june( that will mark that I've had H for a year)...
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I can tell that although I don't have an active OB that my body it currently fighting one off? Does anyone else ever get this feeling? Itchiness in groin, a hive just on my thigh and this one on my arm is just weird... ... So fed up of it
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Ok so I was really itchy on my arm right on the bicep muscle and when I look to see what it was it was likea small, pale, slightly raised bump, just one. It immediately looked like what I know to be a hive. My skin complexion in olive with yellow tones in it, and the bump was definitely not red like some pictures of hives are.
Anyway I forgot about it and tonight I casually itched my arm but was immediately shocked to feel a harder 'lump' under the same hive bump I noticed about three days ago.
I read that hives are a natural histamine, and could happen when you body is fighting off virus like herpes.
Couple this be an explanation? And if so why would it me on my arm it seems really random..
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I just don't see the point in trying anymore.
Marriage children just seem like something I'll only have In My dreams.
This year my younger sister just moved out and got engaged. My best friend is engaged and currently trying for a baby. And I've just had a conversation with my mum about it just being me, my step dad, and my mum for Xmas dinner.
My life is over.
Can't even date anymore.
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Out on the pull meaning I'm out looking hot and ready (or at least I thought I was) to chat and talk to guys
Tonight u went out just with friends... I'm newly single and we'd had a few drinks and they kept talking to guys and saying this is my friend, she's single (cringe) when talking to guys or if a guy came up to me or even if I just looked across the room and though 'he's good looking' there was a voice in my head that said 'I have heroes' then I would envisage myself saying it to the guy and play it out in my head...
In the end I got a cab home and here I am... Found a blister just now when I went to pee...
I still can't believe I have herpes. Forever
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Can I have the link for the small alum again please? X
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Anything from the uk?
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I've got a bad break out... I mean nothing will ever be as bad as the first one... But this is pretty close and a lot worse than any others ...
I'm putting it down to the stress of splitting with my ex and ongoing stress if working my notice at the school I teach at...
I'm realising that I've still not accepted this fully...
I'm already dreaming about disclosures to future partners and waking up in a depressed state of mind...
I think I need help :-(
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To those of you that know, I have spent the last 6 months since diagnosis with my partner.
We have broken up... I'm worrying already about the future and how herpes is going to affect my life
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My boyfriend has accused me and it's all come back to me
in General herpes discussion
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I was diagnosed 11 months ago and I am living a normal life where herpes comes and goes but it doesn't I don't think about it much.
Today I came over to my boyfriends house we were about to go on a date and when I got there he said I looked gorgeous but there was something he needed to ask me - his tone was very abrupt, verging on aggressive- he was angry... By this point my stomach dropped what was he going to ask me? Complete confusion ...
He said that in his life he's had chlamydia three times and that he has started having symptoms and he's pretty sure he's got it and so he needs to know if ive slept with someone else.
Of course I have not- I said no absolutely not, he said what about when we broke up? I told him no and said why would I lie if I had I would tell u because it wouldn't be cheating coz we wernt together. I was shocked . He is sure he has chlamydia - so sure that he has accused me of lying AND having unprotected sex (how could he think id do this after what we went through last year with herpes?)
I cried but at same time got paroniod that I was making myself look guilty. He said he believed me and gave me a kiss but I am mortified.
After a while I said I don't think its the right thing to say by even if I had had sex with someone else's after what we've been through do you think ud do it without protection and then sleep with you?
If he is so sure that he has it- he must have cheated because I really have not slept with anyone else.
I'm so upset I can't stop crying- im writing this as he is sleeping next to me...