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I would love to see a therapist if they weren't so damn expensive :/ And yeah I'm hoping my parents will learn to love me again like they did before my diagnosis. Thanks for the response @whitedaisies :) I'm on the path to self love

Agreed @WCSDancer2010 ! It's comforting to know that I'm not the only one who lost their virginity to a not-so-special guy and subsequently got H. After getting quality advice I think I have the strength to confront him about it. Thank you so much for your support and help. I won't let this define me. I have so much to look forward to and work for in my life. I'm trying to look at this as a learning experience but it's hard when your family isn't supporting you and you feel like you can't tell any of your friends without it becoming public knowledge. I'm trying to handle this on my own but it isn't easy and that's why I'm so thankful for this forum and people like you. *hugs* Taylor

Thank you for taking the time to read my long post and giving me much needed advice @Athena ! This forum is currently the only support I have right now and it's keeping me from breaking down completely.

First, let me tell you about my story. Last week I visited my college that I will be attending in the fall. I stayed with a guy friend (in a frat house at the school) who I don't really know very well but have been talking to for a couple of months. I went out with him and his friends to a bar and got very drunk. Once we got back to the house one thing lead to another (he gave me oral) and the next thing I know we're having sex (I was a virgin before this lovely night and told him I was). The next morning I felt sore obviously and felt like shit that I let that happen to me. Feeling embarrassed, I stayed with a girl friend the next night in a dorm and ran into a couple of the guy's "frat bros" who harassed me on campus and were saying how there's no way I was a virgin before him. A day or two later I noticed that I was developing what looked like a cold sore and I've never had one of those in my life prior to this. Upon returning home after my visit I had two giant cold sores on my lip and felt terrible pain in my vagina. Obviously I was concerned so I went to my OBGYN and she scraped my vagina which hurt like a bitch and drew blood, etc. She then proceeded to tell me that it's vaginal herpes. I'm a 17 year old girl who just lost her virginity to a guy I don't care about AND I have genital herpes. The main reason I came to this forum is to ask you guys how you think I should approach this situation. The guy who I'm almost positive that gave it to me has been in previous relationships and has hooked up with many girls. The last time I received oral from anyone was at least a month before I visited this guy. Clearly I couldn't even trust him to keep the fact that I was a virgin to himself so I'm worried that if I confront him about getting herpes he will make my college life a living hell along with his asshole fraternity brothers. I'm currently being looked at like a total slut by my entire family and am in a current state of shock, disbelief, and depression. I feel like a total idiot and cannot stop crying. Please help.