littleflower

@w Thank you. Thanks for making me feel a bit better. I've been having anxiety attacks all day and i keep checking back on here and reading more and more and it puts me at ease. I went back to the clinic today to speak with another doctor and he also asked which one I had, and I didn't know. On my file it says they didn't identify it, so he sent me back to get more results to see if it was 1 or 2. He also was fairly upset that the doctor previous to him didn't try and figure this out for me.

I have been diagnosed now for four days, but have actually had it for two years without knowing. I've never had an OB and showed zero sign of anything, but now that I have been diagnosed, I'm totally freaked. I'm 19 and my ex boyfriend from high school was a hockey player that would come back every year and would date me through the season. Little dumb and naive girl I was. He called me the other day to tell me. I'm just completely devastated. It's SO comforting to find this here. But what I am scared of is now that I know I have it, I FEEEEL like I have it. I feel something starting on my lip. Down there is constantly feeling weird. I feel like I'm giving myself symptoms. I'm just so terrified. Last week before I had any idea about this I slept with someone and we used a condom but the whole oral sex thing freaks me out. AH. I am just really paranoid. about everything. Could my stress give me an OB?