notinvincible

Thank you so much for the videos. I understand and appreciate their message.... I'm just not there yet. I am still very much in a "grief" and information collecting stage of things. Hopefully once I have accepted and come to terms with my diagnosis they will offer more solace. Right now its just sadness and confusion. But I do appreciate the support and links. I really do, so thank you.

Thanks @yogaj12 You say you caved into supressive therapy. Why were you against taking it? I feel like I'll take it consistently right from the beginning? Just curious what your thoughts are. This site and forum has been extremely helpful in terms of support but mostly information.

@this_sucks thanks for replying. Rough stuff, eh? I never thought this would happen to me and now I feel like my whole life has changed. I was really looking forward to getting out there and having some fun dating and now all I can think about is how I can infect someone I care about. I laugh too sometimes. But mostly I'm numb and almost obsessive about checking myself out down there. Every chance I get! Which is funny in a sense. I have one amazing friend I can confide in but what's hard is this isn't something I feel like I can be externally sad about. It's a very sad and lonely internal battle. Anyways just hoping to get some insight. I've been blessed with a very mild first OB so I feel deeply for those here that are experiencing the traumatic physical as well as emotional effects.

Hi there, I was diagnosed with herpes last week and I am not dealing with it well. I feel like I have suffered an extreme loss and despite all efforts to remind myself I am the same, I can't help feeling broken, undesirable and tainted. Before this I felt like I was a "catch" and now I feel like all my good qualities will be evaluated through a prism of herpes. She's great but.... I recently ended my engagement and relationship of 6 years and hooked up with someone (with a condom! They don't tell you that you can get it with a condom. Very very disappointed with the education system) who gave it to me. I just turned 27 and single and this is NOT how I anticipated my release into the single arena to go. I am broken and devestated. Any support or advice would be so appreciated.