Lifeisamystery

Hey all, I haven't been diagnosed with Herpes, but I'm going to the clinic in about 4 hours to show them what I'm pretty sure is my first outbreak (within the last week I've gone through the prodrome symptoms, flu-like symptoms, and I have 2 white heads on genital area). I'm mentally coming to terms with accepting this (some days better than others) even though I haven't received a proper diagnosis yet, but what I'm really interested in is how do I disclose this to my partner. As the subject says, I'm in a long distance relationship with someone I've been great friends with for the last year and started dating about 4 months ago. I had just seen my partner about 3 weeks ago for an entire month, and at this rate the best case scenario of us being in the same physical space again is probably the end of March for 2 weeks or the end of May when I come home for good. We skype every other day, so I do see her and communicate with her and I told her I think I might have herpes (this was before the 2 white heads and she just thought I was being a hypochondriac...which I kind of am). During this last month with her though we talked about everything having to do with relationships and Life, and one of her dealbreakers was that if anyone gave her genital herpes she would never forgive them (she has HSV1 and I've done thorough research to find out that HSV1 and HSV2 are essentially the same things besides location, and how HSV2 can be dormant in the body for a long time before the first breakout). Now I'm sure she means she would never forgive someone who didnt disclose first. So assuming my diagnosis comes back positive (which I highly think it will), should I tell her via skype while we are long distance or wait till we are united again? I'm thinking the latter so I can actually be there to comfort her, and so our relationship/bond can develop even deeper via this long distance (cause long distance is hard enough). Plus the holidays, her 30th bday, and the bar exam are coming up and I won't be there for any :( so I'd like to support her overseas without giving her something else on her plate to worry about. She's a loving/compassionate person so I know disclosing it to her is not only the right thing to do but huge love points since we've heard the stories of how people knowingly give it to people without disclosing. But I just keep remembering her saying that herpes is like a big no-no for her, but at the same time we talked about one our mutual friends who has it and how it's unfair how some people react to her disclosing it. Also, she's getting to that phase (we both are) where we would like to settle down, so one thing that plays in my mind is if I'm wasting her time..and maybe I should tell her during the long distance so she can go find someone to be with...I don't know, I'm just confused as this points. I mean for all I know we can both already have it...we've been tested together before but as you all know H isn't included in the regular screen of tests. Thanks for any help...just cruising through some of the posts here I find this space real comforting. Have a great day everyone