Bluecrush264

Hi. I recently got diagnosed with HSV 1 from someone who didn't tell me but I feel knew he had it. We had oral sex and I started getting symptoms a few days after. I had no idea what was going on with my body I didn't think it was an std because i didn't know you could contract it orally. My gyno told me and I was devasted. My partner was very supportive at the time telling me it was "only something I had to deal with from time to time, etc" he also didn't ask any questions or bother to get tested. I should've known right then and there but was so taken with him and his support I thought we would be together for a while and I wouldn't have to worry. He screwed me over and I've been having a hard time dealing. I also have found out he has been sleeping with other women. I can't fathom how someone could do this especially knowing he has this and how devasted I was. I even texted him Saying that he handled the whole situation horribly and could've been more supportive. He never responded and wants nothing to do with me. I just graduated from college and have many opportunities ahead of me but I can't even get out of bed or keep a normal routine. I am completely devastated and heartbroken and fear I will never overcome this. Does anyone have any advice. I don't want this to destroy me anymore then it already has. I have turned to some friends but no one really understands. A girlfriend of mine has it and gave it to her boyfriend but she has disclosed to me that he only decided to be with her because she infected him. I do not want that life. If anyone could offer any kind of insight that would be great. Thank you