I just started dating this guy about 7 weeks ago and things were going great. We got intimate pretty quick we had sex once and we wwere fine then New Years eve and new years day we were intimate a few times and the day after I was sore I thought it was just from rough sex then it got worse and worse it was to the point I was crying just to pee the blisters were noticeable, I felt so achy and my gland in my groin were swollen! I just knew something wasn't right!and I freaked out and instantly started googling! When I saw the pictures of herpies I instantly panicked! I instantly got light headed and just cried! I instantly made an appointment with planned parenthood! She said it was most likely herpies and it was very clear i had just been infected in the last 2 to 20 days because of how bad my outbreak was that this was the initial outbreak! I have yet to get my result from my swabs but I am almost positive you can't deny what it is! I have yet to say anything to the guy Im talking to about it I have tried hinting just to see if he would say anything but I truly think he doesn't know he has anything! But I just am so angry hurt and heart broken that I can't even find the words to say to him! I'm terrified he is going to try and turn the tables on me and I don't know if I could even deal with that! So I'm just going through this excrutiating pain and emotional pain by myself! I feel like no one will ever want me again! I'm 23!!! I want a husband and babies! I'm at the point I just don't want to get out of bed I don't want to talk to anyone I just want to cry!