Hello everyone, I wanted to first start off by saying how much I enjoy reading discussions on this site. It's really made me feel a lot better about catching "H" as I see everyone saying. I found out on the 25th of this month that I had herpes. I had sex with my now ex on the 1st, the 5th, and the 7th (TMI, sorry.) And on the 8th I just felt like things werent right. I initially thought I had a perineal cut from the sex but then, I got the blisters. Looked it up on google and read the herpes discription. I was very scared to get tested at first so I waited a while. Got my results and my IGG was >5.00, positive for HSV2. Whats hurts the most is that we had an STD talk and he said he's never had one and as you all know when you get to that certain point of arousal, condom doesnt even cross the mind. During the 2 weeks, we were going through things and after I found out I had it and cried my eyes out, I cussed him out for lying to me. I feel as though he knew he had it or had a feeling because his response was..."what do i need to go get checked for if you're telling me I have it?" Asshole right? I broke it off because of that and other things. I cried a lot but then I thought to myself....it couldve been HIV or some stage 4 cancer. You have it, theres nothing you can do now. My main thing after finding out was, will I ever find love again. Someone thats willing to take that risk and accept me for me. Reading all the disclosure stories just gives me lots of hope. Im waiting for my medicaid card to come in still so I can go to my OBGYN. I have sensitive skin and think im going to have more OB's than the average person, so im going to try suppresive therapy. Im looking foward to interacting with all of you.
A little off topic: Things have simmered down on the outside, but inside my vagina still kind of hurts. (My outbreak has been going on for almost a month) I cant even think about getting a papsmear for fear of the pain its going to cause. If I bring my test results to show my OBGYN, can she just prescribe me the medicine or does she absolutely HAVE to do a papsmear? I feel like its a stupid question but I just need to make sure.