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@MMissouri @PositivelyBeautiful Actually I'm not quite sure what test it was. The doctor wasn't really thorough. She just told me I have herpes and really .. that was it. I only know my results because my aunt works in the office and she showed it to me (and I don't think she was suppose to do that). But other than that, the doctor wasn't really that helpful at all. Most of the stuff I needed to know, I had to look it up myself. But so far, I haven't had an outbreak yet and hopefully I don't any time soon. It sounds very painful. I've got my boyfriend to get tested out for it and hopefully he doesn't have it because I would feel so bad.

@positivelybeautiful Oh okay I see.. If that so, what are the chances of him being infected? He told me the doctor said that if he was infected, he would've known. Like there would be bumps, burning pain when he pees, etc.. We've been together for 4 months and we're quite physical too. Is it possible that even after being together for months, he's still uninfected? I'm sorry if I'm asking so many questions. I just need to know and understand how this works.

@positivelybeautiful Yes my point exactly! I've asked my doctor if there was any way I can pinpoint when exactly did I have it and she said there was no way to tell. But my results were about 14.50. It said if it was anything less than 1.40 or something that would've meant negative but I turned out 14.50 herpes positive. What can you tell from my results? Do you think I've had it for a while or just recently? If anything, my boyfriend could've given it to me since he's had more partners than I did.

@positivelybeautiful @fitgirl @wcsdancer2010 Thank you for your kind words! It really did cheer me up quite a bit! And for which type of herpes, I have both 1 and 2.. I've told my boyfriend to go get tested too just to be on the safe side today. He went and the doctor examined him in his area and the doctor told him that there was no way he could have herpes because he would've known. But I've been doing my research and it says that in some people, symptoms/outbreaks don't show until years later or not at all, right? And basing off what the doctor said, he concluded that he doesn't have herpes and that I do and since he doesn't, where did I get it from? We haven't had sex in weeks because of school and work. The last time we had sex was before either of us got tested. So he believes that within those weeks of not seeing each other, he thought I was having sex with someone else and that someone else gave herpes type 2 to me. Its just crazy and its stressing me out so much. I told him to wait until the blood results come in to know for sure but he still feels that I did do something but I didn't. I love him very much to even think about doing anything to hurt him. Is it because since I haven't had an outbreak, he didn't get infected? I doubt you can tell if a person has herpes type 2 just by looking at their area, right? Since its a virus in your system. I don't think it alters the way your private parts look right? I'm just so stressed out because I'm innocent and because the doctor said that to him, its making him doubt my loyalty. Like, what are the chances of him not being infected? What are the chances of him having it and also not have any outbreaks?

Hello everyone! My name is Tracy and I’m 19 years old. I’m currently studying at a university majoring in biology in hopes of one day, becoming an optometrist. Of all my 19 years I’ve only had a few partners. Four to be exact and I’m still with the fourth one and I love him so dearly. And two days ago, I found out I had herpes. I’ve never got checked before because I was naïve to think that just because I didn’t have many partners in the past, I won’t catch anything. Boy was I wrong. A few weeks ago, I started to have weird symptoms in my lady area. I didn’t think much of it because it had a weird smell before but then it went away after a few days. But days turned into a few weeks, I was beginning to get more concerned. I wanted to get checked out but I also didn’t at the same time. I don’t know. So my boyfriend, lets just call him K, called me one day and told me he was tested for chlamydia and he was positive. SO that really did worry me and so I went to get checked immediately. Since my auntie worked at an OBGYN office, she got me an appointment the same day. I went to get everything checked and she also insisted that I get a blood test for stds as well. I felt like I didn’t need to do all that but she insisted. So I went along with it because I mean, you can never be too sure. So two days ago, my results came and they called me in. I knew I had chlamydia so I wasn’t surprised when she told me I did. The doctor had already given me medications when I told her I was already exposed to it from my boyfriend. So when she told me I came out positive for herpes, my heart dropped. Nothing had prepared me for this. I felt like my life was over and honestly, I didn’t know how to react. I’ve never had an outbreak or signs that even suggests that I have herpes. I was so speechless and my eyes were tearing up. But of course, I had to tell K about it. There was no way I was going to keep this from him. I was scared to but I know he should know about it. I was very nervous at first because I thought he would be grossed out and leave me and I’ll be alone forever because I thought, “Who would want to be with someone who has herpes?” (No offense. This is what I thought that day). K is a very clean guy and he’s already stressing about the chlamydia. Up until he met me, he rarely got sick and never had a cold sore. And ever since he met me, he’s gotten sick a few times and have had two cold sore outbreaks. And knowing that I might possibly given him herpes too, it broke my heart. It took my all to tell him and I broke down crying as I told him because I was so afraid of losing him over this. But fortunately, he said he’s not going anywhere and herpes weren’t going to get rid of him so easily. ☺ That cheered me up but it doesn’t leave the fact that I have herpes now. I don’t know I feel so weird and strange. Like I’m still having such a hard time letting this all sink in. I just want to learn to cope with it and live with it. I really don’t want this to define me because I’m so much more than that. I thought joining a forum with people like me would help me get through this. I don’t know. I’m trying my best to keep my head up and I don’t know. I’m just willing to make some friends on here. I want to be able to talk to someone who can truly empathize with me. I guess what I’m saying is, I need some words of motivation and some strength to pull myself together. Ever since I found out, I’ve been feeling really low and gross about myself. My self-esteem has gone super low and that’s not good at all. Yup well that’s my story ☺