prettyuk22

Thank you so much for your comment and for replying so quickly you've made my day a bit easier. There's aren't any current free spaces at any of the doctors surgeries for about 5 miles around me as I'm on a waiting list. So maybe that's not a forever problem. As far as confiding in people I rarely tell the whole truth, I'm used to just telling half the story. The person I tell my secrets to only knows half the story. My sister, she knows I've had suicidal thoughts but not that I've actually attempted suicide multiple times in the past. In the same way she knows I caught something because I was bed ridden and she came to look after me but I never told her what I had actually got. Even when I lived with her I could never tell her. She would know it was my fault. She doesn't know I can't have kids, I've only ever told boyfriends about this not my parents my sister or my friends (I tell her I never want kids and she tells me I'll change my mind when I'm older, even though she's the same age). Only a couple of my friends know I have a heart condition that could dramatically change my life expectancy. I feel I'm very body confident but for some reason keep everything medical a private issue and have for most of my life. If I start to speak about HSV2* (my bad) I'm going to have to speak about my other health conditions at the same time and I don't feel I'm ready to tell the world about my gloomy death sentence. I'm also very secretive about how many people I've slept with and how lonely I can get because I've completely shut down my love life but am someone who would love to be in love. With all these health problems why would anyone choose to be with me for life? Wouldn't they choose someone who could have kids and grow old with them and have unprotected sex?

Hey, I found out I had hpv2 a year ago, the ex boyfriend who gave it to me denies it and continues to have unprotected sex with lots of girls ( he's famous in the UK music scene). I haven't been able to tell ANYONE about it and have considered suicide because of having herpes and seeing no hope due to lingering depression. I could really use some hope. I have some questions if anyone can help 1. Should I tell other girls that could have herpes through my ex to get tested even if he's not? 2. How do I manage my mental health alongside herpes? Seeing as I have an outbreak when I get stressed and low which is so often because of my depression and I get even sadder and lower during an outbreak because I feel worthless. ( I have been unable to access any mental health care ) 3. I was intimate with someone ( no inter course) and they stopped speaking to me but now are fine with me although we haven't discussed why he stopped talking to me. If I ask him if he got herpes he will deny it regardless and if he hasn't he will tell everyone I have. What should I do? 4. My doctor treats me like dirt since I got HPV has offered no advice, refused to give me a repeat prescriptions or any preventative treatment. I'm unable to change doctors or afford medication online, whay should I do? 5. Previously I had a very good sex drive and was so happy and open about sex and would often give my friends advice about sexual confidence but now havnt been able to tell anyone about my HPV and there for haven't had intercourse since being diagnosed. #foreveralone. If anyone has a device in which to travel back in time that would be really handy too. X