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Update: my doctor called and all my tests came back positive for HSV 1. I've been taking Epsom salt baths twice a day and I just bought tea tree oil to try. I've been trying to stay really positive, I think the only thing holding me back is trying to get rid of these darn things. It's kinda hard to keep that area dry in general. I've been sitting open to air and using a hair dryer but some of them seem to have no improvement. I guess I'll just keep trying. I also bought lysine to take everyday because my doctor doesn't want to start me on suppressive therapy unless I have more OBs since its 1 not 2. Not sure if that makes the most sense to me, but okay. Thank you @WCSDancer2010 for your words. They really helped. It's funny how I thought I was so educated on these things from nursing school but I wasnt. I've done more research in the last 4 days than I have in my whole life. Hopefully I can kick it in the butt and get back to living life. Thank you everyone! Have a good day!

You are not alone in those feelings! Even with all this support you can't help but feel alone. I'm lucky to have my best friend but she is a state away right now and sometimes I feel like a burden asking so many questions. I love her to death but she's not the most compassionate person. I've done a lot of digging around this site and its help a lot in a matter of just 24 hours. I feel like this is the only safe place I have to freely discuss my feelings and have great support from people who have been in my shoes. Feel free to message me if you ever need to vent, because trust me I know exactly what you're talking about. @ihaveittoo thank you for your support. This site has been so helpful. I'm really glad I was able to find it.

I was just diagnosed yesterday with H. Well, I wont know all my test results until friday. However I am a nursing student, my best friend went through this process last year, and my doctor is pretty positive, as am I, that I have it. I went to the doctor yesterday because I was experiencing symptoms of my first OB. I was put on valacyclovir for a week. I feel so alone. I've told my boyfriend, we've been together for 5 months, and my doctor said the chances I got it from him are pretty high. He has no intentions of leaving and knows neither of us knew in advance and it was a risk we both took. I've also told my mom, but shes never experienced such a thing, so even though she is trying to be supportive, she just doesnt fully understand. She sometimes refers to it being my boyfriends fault, but if neither of us have eve had symptoms before we couldnt have known. You cant blame anyone. It helps to have my best friend as well, she is HSV 1 genitally. I just cant help but feel like I am being punished for my poor choices of the past. Im 21 in my senior year and will graduate to become a nurse. My past was difficult, I went through 2 parent divorces and ended a horrible controlling abusive relationship, and searched for attention in all the wrong places, I feel like now I am being punished for that. I feel so alone and depressed and the physical and emotional pain is horrible. I would rather die than to be experiencing this. I feel useless but have so much school work, and want to live my life, Im making myself do things even though I feel completely disgusting and uncomfortable. Ive watched my friend over the past year, and I know it will get better, but the tunnel looks very dark and I see no light. Im just not sure what else to do. I have seen this in my clinicals and watched women who are positive give birth to healthy babies. If I know all these things why do I feel like that life will never be in sight?