2 days ago, my life changed. I found out I'm positive for HSV2 and felt like my life was over. As I am sure many of you can relate, I felt dirty, angry and ashamed. I still feel that way. Over these past 2 days I have had moments of weakness where all I can do is break down and cry. I've also had moments of strength, where I know my life will be okay.
My story: I was tested 6 months ago for HSV2 and it came back negative. I have been with the same partner for about a year and had no concerns about STD's as he had been tested when we first got together as well. I just recently found out that his panel did not include a test for HSV. However, I am the first one to get an outbreak, and he is convinced that he maybe doesn't have HSV2. So now I am trying to navigate all of that on top of dealing with this incredibly painful first outbreak. I love him and will regardless. He states that he loves me and this changes nothing about our relationship, however, I can't help but feel like he is just trying to be supportive, while actually freaking out internally.
I know this will all get better. I will learn how to accept this and continue to have a beautiful life. A lot of the reason I feel this way is because of this website and blog. Thank you to all of you beautiful people who have shared their stories. Knowing that I am not at all alone is such a blessing.