Lindsay200586

About a year ago my boyfriend of 5 years left me. I was grieving the loss of my relationship by seeking negative attention from guys who didn't care about me. I slept with 3 guys (unprotected). Nothing unusually happened to my body after spending the night with these guys.I finally realize that I'm better than that and stopped that kind of behavior. I waited 3 months and got tested for all stds.. i was so relieved when i got my test results.. negative! I tested positive for hsv1 (i had cold sores as a kid but don't get them now). Soon after that i i met prince charming! He is an old friend that i ran into one night and we hit it off! He was tested for stds right before reconnecte with me..he's clean. I'm almost positive he has hsv1. Most do! But he never had a cold sore. Fast forward to today, 6 months after being with prince charming..things are great! :) 2 weeks ago we had rough sex.. i woke up the next morning and felt sore. Its not unusually, plus i figured i was sore bc we didn't have sex at all the week before. we were camping, and had a busy day ahead of us. I didn't wear underwear that next day, so i could feel myself rubbing on my jeans.. it wasn't a big deal, i just felt sore. A few days later, i still felt a little sore inside and inside my left lip and saw a little scratch/tear/cut, whatever you wanna call it. It was sore.. but i wasn't in a lot of pain, it didn't hurt to pee and everything else on my vagina looked good..inside and out. I made a doctors apt for the next morning.. i saw a PA..she couldn't find my sore spot so i had to show her where it was. She looked at me for 20 seconds and said "yea, that looks like herpes". I started to cry and asked her if it could be anything else! Like just a finger nail scratch. She said its not likely.. that it looks like i sore that had just broke. I was devastated. My whole life just changed. She told me that she can clinically diagnose me with herpes just by a visually exam. She said she would do a culture of it and send me to get blood work done (igg igm 1/2..something like that?) She gave me 3 days of medicine and sent me on my way. It was a long week wailing for my results.. i tested negative for hsv2, positive for hsv1 (i already knew that), my culture came back negative as well as all the rest of the stds i was tested for. I was so excited! The feeling of a second chance only lasted a day. I'm panicky now. Why was that doctor so certain i had herpes?? I still feel kinda sore, do you think that's bc i couldn't put down my mirror and flashlight for a week? I poked and wiped all week. I have a apt in two week for my annual visit. I'm so afraid they will tell me i have herpes?? Please help!