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Thank you so much @positivelybeautiful and @wcsdancer2010 for the links and all. I'm actually just pensive under the moonlight reading all these and thinking ... Wow .. What bravery . All I can think of is when the time comes for me to disclose ... I'm smiling and crying at the same time ... I guess I will just have to cross the bridge when I get there.

Hi Poditively Beautiful . Thank you very much for giving the time to read my message . I'm really grateful for the words of hope and encouragement . It is definitely going to be a journey back to me... I hope that I still have a good chance at finding love again ... Or love finding me... Despite having this . I mentioned in another message how reading so much on the Internet has scared me and confused me do much that honestly, it can make one feel quite unlovable . I toss from feeling ok to angry considering that I had trusted someone so much for him to just leave me. It's been tough what can I say.. And 6 months into this, although I have men potentially interested in me, I just fear the disclosure ... Hence I imagine myself alone. Like I psych myself to just accept that having someone is no longer possible . I'm also just getting over being so terribly OC especially at the beginning . I'm sure you can imagine how tiring it has been . I'm making it my mission to just normalize again for lack of a better term . Thank you for reaching out. It really helps to know you're not alone. And yes., I will fight as best as I can to live my life to the fullest and I'll begin by getting all the wonderful advise I can get from people who are kind enough to share their stories and lend a helping hand . I'm so grateful .

Hello Adrial. I actually had to listen much on you tube on all your advice before coming here. To sum everything up, I got diagnosed with hsv 2. Last December. I have had no support as I come from a country that does not offer any. Fortunately I found a good doctor who treated me at the height of all the pain. My long term partner gave me this gift in December and sadly, he left me soon after. Can you imagine being with someone you thought you could trust only for you to just be left alone in the end? Although I am coping on my own , well at most doing my best - and believe me it has come with much struggle- I still need advice . I'm trying hard to love myself more as I truly deserve love but I'll have to admit, I am haunted by any future possibilities on a relationship and this saddens me. I have so many questions that I am afraid to ask with regard to intimacy. I feel there are many changes from here on. I do not want to lose my positive spirit and zest for life . I love life and I'm crazy passionate ... I just do not feel the same . Hoping you can advice.