I just looked in th mirror after a particularly stressful day. I had a pimple breakout, okay. Fine I'm used to that. The corner of my mouth feels sore and heavy. Maybe I bit it? Upon closer inspection, it is a collection of small white bumps on the inside, and on my outer lip there's a cluster of small, watery pimple like things.
I played with fire this week. I was under pressure, so I ventured off to my ex's house to escape my chaotic home. One thing lead to another, and I was fine with it. We had lots of sex before this point, (he is hsv 1 and 2 positive) and I never had any symptoms. We broke up last week, and I was actually out there and talking to new people... Anyways.
I'm in the shower and my vag itches. Like really itches, so I reach down to give it a soothing rub and guess what?
That shit HURT.
The day before I had been trying to convice myself that this sore throat was happening because it had been a full week without shoving this dude's huge dick down my throat and pretending to care, satisfying his weird whims for like 5 seconds of faux kindness from this egotistical douchebag...
But no, I'm sore. It hurts. I cried. I feel alone because earlier I had not even mentioned my symptoms, (because he got mad every time i mentioned my concerns after scare number 4) - and we got in a stupid argument over echo and the bunnymen of all things... And i wanted to tell him about this but he's such an asshole, i wish i had some support.
I never had any kind family members in my life, and the friends i have, i dont know if they would be understanding.
I should have left him 2-3 months in, not 6 months
I should be having fun and fucking around, but i had to fuck up
And now i have to tell the person i kind of liked about this
Cause before this "relapse" into my ex's shitty cluthes, not but a few days before- this super nice guy had been talking to me and we had been connecting rather deeply. We've both recently left abusive relationships, and we had so much. I Sucked his dick before i had these symptoms, but we hadn't gone whole way. How do i tell him about this? He was already like hey, youre awesome! Whats the catch? (Said jokingly) fuck. I feel like shit. My lip is swollen and gross and burning, my vag is sore, my throat is sore.
This is my fault.
so. I what are your experiences like?