i know i have dragged this topic through the dirt before but im so scared
what i left out in my last discussion is that i just remembered that i did have a sexual experience with my mutual partner in like 7th grade i'm in 9th grade now, he had MANY sexual partners but with me no insertion just touching and rubbing.. i am so scared that i have contracted HSV-2 or HSV-1 i have these NEW symptoms:
strong fatigue (tired almost 24/7)
extremely itchy blisters resembling bug bites that have started to leak clear fluid and sometimes form scabs
skin rash on my stomach
crust that is white starts to appear all over my skin at times
little blisters on my penis starting to cluster
phenomena-like cough
i am so scared i might give this to my family members i don't what i would do if that happened i feel like i'm a walking disease bomb i have stopped kissing my nieces and nephews for like 1 month and a half after all these symptoms appeared, i have had 2 severe panic attacks and a mental breakdown while my metal breakdown was happening i started to punch holes in my wall while crying and broke like 3 vases in the house , threw my TV at the door , and broke my bedroom window) since my last post on here i cant stop thinking about this,i am 90% sure i have this. I couldn't believe that i was stupid and this is happening at age 16 to me , this is the only the beginning of my life i feel like i'm going to go back to school this year and infect people i told my mom that if i do get diagnosed with this i want to be home-schooled for the rest of high-school experience im currently prepping my self to being told "yes you are positive for HSV-2 (or 1) BTW there is no cure"
i'm so sorry for any grammar mistakes or typos