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this will be my last time on this site i believe, I'm coming up to 2 years here. still wakes me up at night, think about it all the time. think about how a lying women ruined my life. think about how a lack or education on my part with all things std, i never knew anything about hsv, hpv, hiv until it was too late. it can always be worse. i was always open with the women i was dating and got tested and expected the same in return. i will always think about the condom on my nightstand she said i didn't need because she had an iud, and will always remember how she changed after with all the lies and bullshit. u really can't trust anyone, and should always be safe. by the time we end up on this site its usually to late. i will never get my health back , or peace of mind. i won't put another person threw this either. its over. good luck to the rest of you. i feel for ya.

hey mmissour, you have a lot of good points there. I'm a kind of personality that worries a lot , so for me when i see my dick and it looks like there is something wrong, i worry about it, i know there is a virus mutating in my body. i know it can cause major problems, it may cause cancer , who knows. it bothers me. and it angers me. there is nothing i can do about it. another thing I've been reading some other posts about ppl having dry skin on their faces, like eczema, since this happened to me I've been having the same problem on my face , around my eyebrows and under my eye. dry skin. won't go away. just another problem on the list i suppose. not sure if its related, almost seems like it from the sounds of things, but that will just have to be another unanswered question. I'm over a year now, no break outs since the first one. weird colour still , and the dry skin thing. I'm glad to hear it doesn't hold others back. I'm just sick of thinking about it. sick of having to try to distract myself all the time. tiring. i would sue this women who gave this to me if i could.

here's an update on my herpe life. getting close to my first year here. my dick still looks sunburned, which I see everyday. Which in turn usually leads to depressing thoughts. My sex life has been non existent because I just don't wanna talk about it with someone. that being said I am living a productive healthy lifestyle, I just still think about it everyday, and I have noticed I am a lot more angry then I have ever been. I've read a lot about herpes. It seems like one day there may be a vaccine for those who don't have it, but I feel like this path I'm on is gonna be the same for life. and that's unfortunate.

i wanted to come back to this site and leave another comment because i don't really think ill be back on this site to often. wanted to let you guys know where I'm at with this thing. so its been around 6 months since the first outbreak. no other outbreaks. end of my dicks colour still not the same. have a feeling it never will be. i still think about it everyday, and I'm still angry about it. but for the most part I'm just keeping busy and living my life. hoping for the best. big game changer though. kinda scared about the whole sex thing these days. and kinda just don't wanna be bothered.

hey williteverstop, i am feeling the exact same way. super pissed who someone can walk into your life and change things forever. i've been at about 3 months right now. end of my dick is still red, purple patches, and i have a patch of red skin on my leg now too. all of which haven't seemed to go anywhere... seems like the new norm. feel itchy and tingly lots now too. if things went back to looking like they always have before except for outbreaks, i think it would help a lot mentally. but things aren't changing.. yet. i've been on this site lots, and talking to people lots about it. i don't feel ashamed or nothing like that, I'm just really disappointed. we all know things can always be worse. that being said i spend a lot my time sleeping these days ! thinking there will be outbreaks in the future is strange to think about too. anyways i read that hsv1 wasn't supposed to be that bad and that lots of people have it. seems to be worse then what i imagined

wow. how did I get so lucky!!! thx

Is it possible for me to have kids without giving this to someone else?

thx again 2 legit. I hope your situation gets better w time too

2 legit, I guess the only thing it has changed is of course the symptoms, it's been almost 3 months and the end of my dick is still red. The skin doesn't look like it used to, So everyday when I see it , I get upset. and it makes me think of the whole situation which brings on a bunch of mixed emotions and anger, so I'm living that everyday, which obviously never used to be the case... But besides that, I'm still waking up in the same bed and going to the same job. Haven't been to stoked on going out and meeting anyone at all. Last few months have been pretty damn depressing. I guess I'm fearing having the talk. and I've probably read Too many scary things online. But they are possible. So this is just where I'm at. hopefully settle down more in time.

i'd like to thank u guys again for the comments so far. i keep finding myself back on this site. wanting to know more, wanting to know that things are gonna be ok. i have the herpes thing on my mind all the time. its in my dreams , i have negative thoughts running around in my head. i've tried talking to other people about it, but no one really knows what to say. and i know they just feel bad for me , and it adds to the sadness that i already have. in my head i've always had this fairytale life i thought was gonna come true someday, and i feel like this has taken that away from me. but i'm 32 and there hasnt been any fairy tale so far! ha, so i'm most likely being very unrealistic. i just read some words on here that really were just like how my life was before. i always had lots of problems before this, the whole self esteem thing and everything that has to go with those issues really make it seem like life is over, like no one is going to except me. i've always been the type to worry about the past and the future, and worry about everything i cannot change. the people i've talked to i don't get any feelings of hope or love and anything positive. that's why i keep ending up back here. i'm really glad this site has been here. i realize that someone gave this to all of us. while we are all looking for love, get a life long disease. but still on the same quest as before.. only things gonna be rougher now. just want a piece of happiness at some point!

Thx for the info. Stressful time for sure

Geesus. I'm lost for words.

hmm. I was sore like u described too.. and right now I have a lil patch of red skin on my inner thigh smaller then a nickel but it's been there for weeks... Doesn't bother me at all, but wasn't there before. once I got valtrex after waiting a week. The one pimple I had was gone in a few days , the symptoms and figuring out what is going on now and in the future I am unsure of. don't really know what to expect/ Regardless to say I'm kinda scared of touching myself and sex all together now!!! life. What a ride huh

2legit u have hsv1 and u are breaking out lots? I'm 6 weeks in after my first one, and I don't like to think about having another one , i talked to my brother he says he has hsv1 oral and have never had a sore. so I'm keeping my fingers crossed on the future breakouts. Just curious about things looking the way they did before

k, so its been around 6 weeks since i had my first outbreak, from the swab , came back hsv1.. while i waited the 7 days for the test results to come back it just killed to piss, prob cause i kept ripping the sore off cause i thought it was a pimple, anyways... 6 weeks later the end of my dick is still redish.. like it doesn't look like it did before... like it looks like it would be sore. but it's not? it the skin healing? does it take time? i'm confused...? during the 7 days though waiting for the test. it was mega sore and swelled. like i was dreading having to use the washroom. i havent read or watched anything so far in regards to this situation?