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@fitgirl Thank you for your kind and encouraging words. That really helps me feel better, I actually I am going to really take time to myself. I might even go back to college and take classes. I really need to re evaluate who I want to be with for forever and what I want in a relationship and what I want for me before I even consider someone. I need to really heal and get to know myself before even talk to someone about a possible friendship again. I just lost my best friend.

I found out I have herpes back in april, my boyfriend was there, it was not an issue, but now of a sudden it is. He seems very upset about it, and now I am hurt by his insensitive comments, and he appologizes but I feel that is not enough because I feel empty. There is many issues in our relationship, but he is mostly concerned about himslef, and is very controlling about me, and I am thinking about breaking up with him. I don't think I have to change myself for him. I love him very much and I am going through a hard time in my life not just with him but I mean like in other regions in my life day to day and I still try my best with him. I am also thinking about trying a herpes dating website just to talk to someone not to just off the bat date, I am very hurt. Please no bashing this is just me looking for an outside perspective.