I found out I have herpes this past Sunday. I have basically been crying since then. I went in for my annual exam for BC and the doctor noticed bumps that I thought were razor burn or ingrown hairs She said they looked suspicious but she wasn't 100% sure.I was given meds for good measure and she cultured. The results were positive. I'm seriously shocked. I have no idea how this happened. I've been inside my head, racking my brain trying to figure out at which point in my life did I come in contact with this. I have two beautiful kids. I had no issues with them but what if I had had it, not known, and passed it to them. I feel like I need to isolate myself. I've bought a separate hamper for my dirty clothes, tossed my bar soaps, I made it clear to my daughter that we can no longer share towels. I even disinfect the bath tub and toilet seat after I use it. Luckily, I have friends that have been there for me. The man I am dating has been very supportive also, he's never shown symptoms and he's planning on getting tested. grateful to that, but I can't help but feel ashamed and dirty(no offense).
What does this mean for my love life? What if his test comes back negative? What if it comes back positive? Am I never going to be able to receive oral? I feel like I'm going to have to wear a giant condom that goes over my entire body. I have so many questions. Do I need to be on my medication at all times or only during a breakout? What supplements should I take to care for my immune system? My symptoms were very mild, does this mean my next breakout will be horrible?
I have been researching and reading and googling. I'm so glad I found this site. I still have all of these negative feelings and my self esteem basically doesn't exist anymore but this site lifts my spirits. It conforts me knowing I'm not alone. I want to be proactive about this and I'm sure it will come as time passes. Thanks for providing a safe place .