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I am starting to get really discouraged. When I first found out I had herpes I had about a monthly long nasty outbreak I didn't have another outbreak until August. Since August I started using a period calender to record my OB since I had three oiybreals alone in august. (Granted, Uni had started again, I had just moved back to America, and my boyfriend dumped me) so I assumed stress. However since I have had an outbreak every 26-28 days. I am on birth control, the same I had been using since the beginning of the herpes contraction, so I don't know what is going on! No habits have changed (no increase in drinking or smoking). I take 2k lysine per day (1 1kmg in morning and 1 at night). I also take vitamin C. When I do have an outbreak I have aciclvor on standby, but I prefer to not take these meds. I also took two HIV test, in fear one was negative because I heard immune system problems lead to repeat herpes can mean HIV. Both negative. (The HIV test was well after 6 months from the man I received herpes from, and my recent boyfriend certainly doesn't have HIV.) Please anybody who can give me info on how not to get it every month I would be so grateful.

I had my first break out about two weeks ago. It was disgusting. 10+ blisters all oozing (and I was on my period, made it much worse because I couldn't use a tampon due to the blisters locations). Definitely was a primary outbreak. But I got put on antivirals for 5 days and it all completely cleared up. I am actually quite surprised, I thought my vag would never look normal again (it is like nothing was ever there) HOWEVER the past few days I have consistent tingling that wont go away and those nerve pains in my butt. Is it normal for this to last so long? I haven't seen any other blisters show up. And when prodrome is happening, does this mean the viral shedding is happening? Also, I am worried I might have a bacterial infection maybe as well. It smells just awful, and on top of the tingling there is some serious itching going on

I have waited my whole life for this point, the point where I made it to Germany. I work very hard in my studies, and always had this dream to live abroad in Europe (specifically Germany). I worked in Prague for a few months over the summer as an intern, and that was great. But finally, I am in Germany for EIGHT MONTHS to have the time of my life (study abroad). To date cute german boys, to eat great german food, and to further my progress with German. The first weekend night I got too drunk. I was just so happy to have gotten so far, and afterall this was the beginning to the greatest adventure. This amazing german guy was so interested in me and brought me home. I remember the moment, when I asked if he could wear a condom (he said he didn't have any, but he was "safe"). Four days after I got two herpe bumps. I sent him a picture, and he first claimed it was nothing. Then over the next few days i had over 10 and was in excrusiating pain. (Mind you, I have been staying in a hostel this entire time because I do not go to my student housing until next week). Finally, he admits that he "might" of had a herpes break out. I am sort of over the complete horror of first finding out. The tears have subsided quite a bit. But I am still so sad. I feel like not only has the trip of my life been ruined, but so has just forever. I keep looking at my life in two sequences now: BH and AH. Before herpes, when I was free. AH: there is no freedom. I know I keep reading this "inspiring" articles, but there is no way these people are really happy. There is nobody who would ever just want herpes. THis is all so unfair. I just don't understand, why me?