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Hey, Thank you very much for your answers - I surely will get tested for the type of herpes I have. Since I am a very very big hypochondriac I get tested for HIV, Syphilis, Hepatitis A,B,C, Chlamydia and basically pretty much all over the board every 2 months - thank god, I have always been clean and I hope I will be in the future, but it has never occurred to me to identify which type of herpes I have. Will do it definitely. The comparison with the car driving is great - will try and change my perspective about this herpes. The girl I was talking about actually called me later that day and she was like - "Ok, we will discuss this further in person" (I told via text message) and she kinda like accepted it - which is a big relief for me. Thank you sooo much.. once again. Regards, Ilko

Hello everybody, I have herpes for 2 -3 years now. I do not know if it is type 1 or 2 because I have never done any testings on it - just have outbreaks down there so I guess its type 2. I got it from my wife (she wasn't my wife back then) - she did not tell me she had herpes and I am not sure if even she knew she had it (I think she did). We have a beautiful daughter but things aren't going so well between us and we are now splitting up. For the time we had been together I only cheated on her few times with sex workers (always with protection - I have always been very strict about this) - just because I didn't want to go through the herpes talk with some normally - met girl. I did not disclose it to the hookers because I think they accept this risk when they start doing this job in the first place. Now that we have separated me and my wife - I met a really nice girl who is all into me and stuff and I really want things to happen with her.. I am a responsible person - always facing whatever problem straight on without fear because I think the sooner you face the problem the sooner you are through it. That thinking led me to disclosing to her about my herpes - saying that I really like her and I want to be completely honest with her. I think she kinda felt a lil disappointed - she was like "I really really like you - can't stop thinking about you, which hasn't happened to me for a long time.. and now this.. people start worry you know" - she's got the point there. I don't know if this is a rejection or not and if it is - I do not really care because I can live through it. But I felt like so marked and dirty and like I am unworthy - it literally made my stomach a ball. The disappointment I felt she felt was like the hardest hit I have ever taken for long time and I really hate myself for having this virus. Even if she is ok with it and agree to have sex with me - how would I have sex with her knowing that I could possibly give her this. I do not know - I still have 0 experience with disclosure - I do not know if every time will be like this but it is damn hard - at least for me. Would appreciate some tips.. Regards, Iliya Iliev